The first time meeting him was on a sunny day, of course in summer and I was in the playground with my friends Rebecca and Caitlyn. He never really seen me though, I always hid behind my friends. I thought I was an outsider for a very long time, I could never fit in anywhere at all. Well, until I saw him. I felt happy when I saw him. I may or may not stare at him whenever he was playing with his friends. That's when my heart started to beat. Not a normal beat but when it's beating faster so I can hear it in my ears. That sort of heartbeat. 

      We never talked, at least not on our own. Whenever I had an award given to me I would sort of search for him. It sounds weird but it's true but I never was able to find him at all. This went on for about three years. But when I was in year 3 (I think it was), I might have pushed him down a set of stairs and I'm deeply sorry that it happened. I didn't want to do it, you could say that I envied him, like a lot. I'm glad he didn't tell anyone though, I would have got done a lot. 

      when I was in year 4, I left that school and at the time I think I left a part of my heart there. it shattered a lot. Of course, I wanted to leave that school but I missed all my friends especially him. I don't know what I would have done though. I couldn't do much, my mum had to move house. when I left, I got really upset but by the time I went to my recent primary school, I sort of forgotten him. Yeah I know that sounds harsh but it was true. my mind got priorities over other boys in that school. But I knew that my heart was never whole at all. In year 5 in great auntie died of cancer. I got so emotional that I didn't talk to anyone about it. 

     In secondary school...