LONEWOLF 

-Starlightpikachu-

February 20, 2021

Hey, are you still awake? Sorry to disturb you but, before you sleep, I will give you my answer for the last time. Make sure you listen properly because the last time we spoke, your hearing worsened and you became grumpier more than you usually do. Although my body never changes, yours do. I’ve seen how you slowly age from toddler up to your maturity. Do all humans change that fast or were it just you? You were just a few days old when they sacrificed you to me and now, your skin is wrinkly and soggy. You couldn’t even go out of that bed anymore. 

Hey, are you still listening? Nod if you do because I don’t want you to sleep on me again. Are you really that tired? No worries, I’ll stay with you until you fall asleep. I’ll cook your breakfast tomorrow and I promise I’ll properly cook the eggs this time. Do you remember the last time I cooked, right? you vomited everything because I added a liter of vinegar the last time and from that point on you kept volunteering to cook until your eyesight became deteriorated. Every meal you made was the best meal I had ever eaten. I wish I could eat your meal again but I doubt that will happen anytime soon. 

Hey, you’re slowly falling asleep now huh. It’s fine. I won’t leave you. Why are you crying? Why are you apologizing? I’ll see you again in a few hours. So, don’t keep apologizing as if you’ll leave me for good. You haven’t even heard my reply yet so hang on a bit more, will you? Stop saying that your time is up because I’m already researching the eternal youth potion. I may finish it soon so relax. Give it another year or two. 

I know you can’t hear me now nor you can read my lips but I’m holding your hand real tight even though you are the frailest human I know right now; I hope you’ll feel the warmth through my hands because that’s how I felt every time I’m with you. I can’t express my feelings properly for so long and now, I hope I was not too late. 

Do you wish to sleep now? It’s okay. I’ll stay here a bit more. Close your eyes now and I promise I won’t let go of your hand until you say so. I’ll read your favorite story so you can sleep better. I’ll also plant kisses on your forehead like how you wanted it. If you can see me right now, I’m smiling because I’m just remembering the memories we shared throughout these years. I’m glad they gave me you. I’m glad I met you. Thank you for accepting a monster like me into your life. Thank you for loving me. Thank you.

 Hey.. 

Why do I feel like crying right now? Hey, I know you’re sleeping but wake up for a while. Your warmth is fading. Hey, are you cold? If you could just nod or move any part of your body, it would be appreciated. Hey, I love you. There I said it. I love you so please move. Hey, was I too late again? Hey, what should I do now? I’m alone yet again. If only I could give my eternal life to you, maybe, just maybe, we’ll stay together forever. I’m scared of being alone again. I don’t know where to start again. How can I see you again? When can I see you again? Hey, please don’t leave me. Please..