John
I know we're not supposed to get involved romantically, but it's not my fault.
The heart wants what it wants and my heart aches for her.
Now, I know what you're thinking. Yes, she's my cousin but in name only. We're not related as she is not actually uncle Felix's daughter. And since my dad and uncle Daniel aren't brothers by blood, Rosalyn and I aren't related at all.
But that's not even the worst part. The real problem is that she is 2 years older than me, which means that we CAN NOT be mated to each other. So yes, I'm going to have my heart broken any moment now when she finds her mate and there's nothing I can do to prevent it.
Truthfully, I can't even root for her NOT to find her mate, because if she doesn't, her brother ascends. And that would suck. Not to mention that if Emmett becomes Alpha, I have zero chance of being Beta of the pack. Emm's Beta will be his best friend. So my only shot at it is if Rosalyn ascends. So yeah, that's the situation I'm in.
When I first shifted 2 years ago, I promised myself I wouldn't let anyone else decide my fate. I would make my own destiny, like my aunt Denise did when she became the first female Delta of the pack.
So I've been training with her and the twins ever since. I trained til the point my body was so sore it barely had time to wolf heal. Soon, Delta Huntington - as she makes us call her - was giving me additional exercises. And I trained some more!
I had a huge growth spurt once I was able to shift and started training. Not to brag, but I am the same height as my cousin Emmett, who is 2 years older than me!
It was summer, so we didn't have school. But warrior training doesn't stop. When I first asked about it at 13, my aunt Denise said: "Sure, let me just call all the rogues and enemy packs not to attack us because it's summer!"
I know, right? I freaking love her! She's awesome!
Today, as part of our training, she's teaching us how to defend ourselves against a wolf. But as humans. You know, in case you get attacked and don't have time to shift, which can happen to anyone in human form. If you start shifting and a rogue attacks you, you'd be totally vulnerable to them. Possibly, they could kill you even before you completed the shift.
1 hour in, I'm covered in bite marks and am bleeding from my arms. We start to walk back to our homes.
"My mom is gonna freak when she sees this!" - I panic, as the bleeding continued. It was bandaged, but not well. Not by a doctor or nurse.
"I know, when daddy saw our first bleeding injury he nearly had a heart attack. He thought we were attached by rogues!" - Emmett snickered. But got serious all of the sudden.
"I mean, but that's because he..." - He trailed of.
"I know, Emmett." - I spoke in a sad tone. - "Anyway, I guess it goes with the territory. Let the wolf healing begins!" - I tried to say it in an amusing tone. They laughed softly.
"See you guys after lunch?" - I asked, expectantly.
"See you later at the pack house, John. Good luck with your mom!" - Emmett chuckled.
As expected, as soon as I entered the house my mom screams when she sees me.
"Oh my God! Were you attacked?!" - She yelled as she rushed to my aid.
"No mom, it's part of the..."
"Warrior training! He has to learn how to defend himself against a wolf. You do not always have time to shift before an attack." - Dad interjected. He tried to be blasé about it but he too was scared by the look of it.
"Fucking Denise! Is she preparing my son or trying to kill him? I can't tell anymore!" - Mom snickered as she took out her medical case and started cleaning the wounds.
"I'm pretty sure she wouldn't kill a minor. Specially the Beta's son." - Dad snickered. But mom did not look happy.
"Are you gonna talk to her about it?" - She asked him, angrily.
"No! I don't want you to complain to anyone about my training! She's the reason I got this good!" - I shouted, worriedly.
"But John, look at this!" - She cried out as she looked at the nasty gash in my arm. It was ugly. A wolf's canine was no joke.
"I know mom, but if dad complains about it, she'll get even worse! She's vicious. You should see how she treats the twins!" - I whined. I wasn't lying. The twins were more advanced so they got dealt harsher than me.
"I believe you!" - She said with a dark tone. I winced at the pain when she applied the medicine at the wounds.
After a good half hour of doctoring by my mom, she's finished and I'm starving.
"What's for lunch today? Why can't I smell anything?" - I asked, quizzically.
"Go take a shower! We're having lunch at the pack house today." - Mom replied. I celebrated.
She had to wrap the bandages in plastic so they don't come undone under the shower. I tried not to get it wet, but it's not like I couldn't use BOTH my arms. I mean, it was bad!
At the pack house dining hall, everyone is there. Aunt Denise has a toddler in each arm, which is a rare sight. Uncle Damon too had a toddler, but his mate had him.
"So John, how was training today?" - Uncle Dan asked me, between bites of his meal.
"You mean the one where your sister almost killed my son?" - Mom interjected, furiously.
Everybody looked at her and aunt Denise.
"Mom, you promised! Dad!" - I screamed. Dad glared at my mom, who was unfazed.
"I didn't complain about it, Delta Huntington, I swear! She just freaked out when she saw the wounds!" - I rushed to tell her, apologetic. But she was unfazed by my mom's words.
"That's okay nephew, I believe you. That's why you're my favorite!" - She winked at me.
"Hey!" - Emmett shouted. - "I train just as hard as him! And I never complained to my dad, you know, the Alpha." - He gave her a menacing look.
"And you wonder why John's my favorite!" - Aunt Denise snickered. My dad, Rosalyn and the rest of the people laughed, except for uncle Dan and Emmett.
"Denise, he is your nephew too!" - Uncle Dan chimed in, looking at her with a pleading look.
"I know he is Daniel, because if he wasn't, he wouldn't be able to eat today from the bruises!" - She looked at him threateningly.
"Jesus! You people make me miss my dad!" - Uncle Felix snickered.
"She's your people too, you know. Do you need to see the marriage certificate?" - Uncle Dan joked, looking at uncle Felix. Of course, he giggled at his mate.
"So, uncle Dan, can I ask you something?" - I said as I sound unintentionally mysterious.
"Of course nephew, ask me anything!" - He promptly replied.
"Is it true that we can smell when a girl is pregnant?" - I asked him and it's like a bomb went off.
"Oh my God!" - Mom yelled. - "Who did you get pregnant?" - She looked beside herself. Everyone looked at me. I mean EVERYBODY at the table - including my dad - gasped.
"Oh my Goddess, mom! I was just curious! I didn't get anyone pregnant!" - I shouted in my defense. I was mortified. Not in the least by the look Rosalyn gave me. It was of utter shock.
"Are you sure son, because I need to know if you did. I can talk to her!" - Mom insisted.
"Daphne stop, please, you're embarrassing me in front of everyone! Dad tell her!" - Things would have to be pretty bad for me to call her by her name. And she knew it!
Dad whispered something in her ear. She calmed down. But the entire table still stared at me.
"If I show up with an unmated pregnant girl here, I think my dad would disown me!" - Emmett said, looking scared.
"And you'd be blocked from being Alpha!" - Uncle Dan stated, which of course made everyone even more spooked.
"That goes for the both of you, by the way!" - He continued. Rosalyn was mortified.
"Thanks, cousin!" - Rosalyn snickered. And I knew I was fucked.
"I didn't get anyone pregnant! I'm only 15 years old! And I don't even have a girlfriend yet!" - I yelled. Mostly at Rosalyn, but I couldn't make it sound that way.
"So, to answer your question John, yes it's true. Werewolves can smell if a girl is pregnant. I was the one who told your mom she was pregnant with you and your brother." - Uncle Dan told me in a calm voice. Mom mumbled "show off".
"However, that can only happen if you've already been around someone who's pregnant. You know what I mean? It's not an innate scent. You have to had smell it before to pick it up. So there's no way YOU can smell it just yet!" - He continued, in a reassuring tone.
"Thanks uncle Dan, I know I can always count on you." - I replied cheerfully, trying to make myself less embarrassed.
Later that day, I was at the waterfalls with Rosalyn, which was our makeout spot.
"So..." - She started, but I didn't want her to finish.
"I swear I was just curious. It meant nothing, I haven't done anything!" - I defended myself as we sat next to each other near the water.
"I know John, obviously! But it did make for an interesting conversation topic." - She pointed it out.
"Interesting to whom? To everyone staring at me after my crazy mom accused me of having an unmated pregnancy?" - I shouted, I was furious at my mom. It was just an innocent question!
"No, of course not. She was just being a mom. I mean, interesting for us." - Rosalyn stated.
"We don't have to talk about it, Rosalyn, I know we can't do anything and I would never pressure you to. I think you'd know that by now!" - I told her in an annoyed tone.
"I know John, relax. That's not what I was going to say!" - She turned me to look at her deeply in the eyes.
"I know what you're going to say, okay? I'm not stupid. I know it has nothing to do with us having sex. You want to tell me that I can't have any expectation from you. That our relationship can never go beyond what we already have. That this is as good as it gets. And at any moment, we won't be able to have any of this any more cause you'll be mated. I know!" - I blurted. Once I started, I couldn't stop it. Then I cried. So she hugged me.
"You don't need to tell me cause I already know, and I don't care! I'll take what I can, while you let me!" - I continued. I sobbed for a long time in her arms after this.
"I didn't want for this to happen, you know that?" - She said as she held me. I could feel her eyes weren't dry either.
"I know Rosalyn, I just want you to know it's none of our faults; and I'm not blind here! I mean, of course, it'll hurt me when it happens. But I know it can't be helped." - I told her, confidently.
After a good while, we washed our faces on the water. We liked to bathe here occasionally, but today wasn't one of those days. I just needed to be close to her. Scent her. Kiss her.
"Hey, just because we can't have sex, doesn't mean we can't fool around!" - She snickered, playfully.
I could smell the lust in the air. Mostly was my own, I can't lie. But hers also.
She took off her shirt, but kept her bra on. I had already removed mine cause she likes to admire my abdomen when we're together. She then sat on my lap and kissed me.
After a moment of making out, she then said:
"Okay, you can take JUST your pants now." - She ordered me, looking anxious. I complied in seconds. She then sat on my lap again and rode me while clothed.
She liked to feel my nature and I liked to feel any part of her she would let me. Of course, I want more but as I said before, I'll take what I can get. And I enjoyed every second of it!
A/N: Never there was a song that truly captured a chapter like this one (this is my second book).
It's literally about not wanting the person to say the things you already know and it hurts.
It's a match made in heaven. LoL
Love,
Léo.
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