John
I lost my footing! I am already a very white boy, but now I look like a ghost!
When Rosalyn said the words: 'He got me pregnant' I died a little. Not that the idea of having a baby with her is an awful one, I'm just very young! I just now had my first sexual experience. I wanted more, much more!
I didn't get it when she was just hitting me. Then, I got it. I was glad my dad was there to catch me like he always is. Because I was a wreck!
When she told me she didn't want to see me ever again in her life, I cried even more!
That's not what I want. I want to see her for the rest of my life! I do, can't help it.
I'll (probably) change my mind once I meet my mate, I'm aware. But that won't be for another 3 years, at least! For a teen like me that's a lifetime. It's not like Rosalyn who could meet hers by the end of the next school year, if she's lucky.
Or if she's really lucky, she could have a mate dream and find him now, which would prompt her to ascend as Alpha. Of course, that wouldn't matter now that she's pregnant! Her dad said that if she had an unmated pregnancy, she would be blocked from Alpha. That would kill me! Especially if she dreams about her mate before Emm finds his.
Plus, let's face it! Neither one of us want an unmated child! Especially as she's the Alpha's daughter. I can already imagine the scandal when people find out about it! I know it's very unlikely that she gets rejected by her mate over this, but it's possible! Fuck! That'd be even worse!
Now I am at my house, since I wasn't allowed to go to the hospital with her. And my mom can't even tell me the result because of some boring doctor law. My only hope is that my uncles tell me or my dad, or at the very least she texts me. I mean, it's the least you could do after you hurt someone, literally.
"She's not pregnant!" - Dad snapped me out of my thoughts.
"Really? Are you sure?" - I double checked.
"Yeah. Your mom ran the labs herself twice!" - He replied, grinning.
"Thank Goddess!" - I exhaled the biggest sigh of relief.
"Tell me about it! I'm not ready to be a grandfather just yet. I'm way too young!" - Dad smirked.
"Don't get me started on too young, dad, I had a cold sweat ever since she pointed the finger at me." - I admitted, so very relieved.
"She didn't mean any of the stuff she said, son, she was just upset. It's normal. She had way too much to lose!" - Dad said, trying to make me feel better.
"I know, dad, I'm not mad at her. It's just hard to hear, you know. I mean, if I'd said it was her idea at that time, I think she would've scratched my eyes out." - I snickered.
"Oh definitely, you do not want to contradict a woman when she's pissed. That's like saying: 'You have nothing to be angry about'." - He told me in an amusing tone.
"I get it. I'm just relieved for her. Also, if she was blocked from Alpha for something I had anything to do with, I'd be devastated! Not gonna lie!" - I confessed, a little sad.
"I know, son, it would feel like it's your fault and taint your relationship forever. I mean, for as long as you have till she's mated." - Dad spoke in a serious tone.
"Exactly. But don't remind me!" - I smirked.
"Well, the important lesson here is: always be safe! Or better yet: don't have unmated sex!" - Dad advised in a condescending tone. I laughed a little.
"Of course dad, always. Now more than ever! Not that we'll ever..." - I trailed off.
"Well, not after this scare!" - He snickered.
The next day, at warrior training, she's back at her closed off self, without making eye contact with me.
"I can not believe you were this close to be blocked from Alpha!" - Emmett spoke with a sad smile.
"I can't believe my idiot brother will meet his mate in 5 days!" - She replied, with an annoyed tone.
"Tell me about it! I could hardly sleep the last few nights." - He smirked, feeling happy.
"You do know she may not show up, it's an old people's party." - I interjected. But Emm didn't appreciate my opinion.
"Thanks cousin, you can stop defend my sister now, she's not gonna be Alpha!" - He snickered.
"I'm not defending anyone, I'm telling the truth. Plus, you'll only be Alpha when your eyes are black." - I rebuked, annoyed.
"I'm sorry I didn't text you the result last night, I just had a lot on my mind!" - Rosalyn spoke to me for the first time today.
"It's okay, I understand. I would be devastated if you were blocked from Alpha on my account!" - I admitted in a pained voice.
"It's not your fault, John, I just said that cause I was angry." - She confessed, making me gasp.
"It is partially his fault." - Emmett interjected with a devious smile.
"Thanks, Emm." - I smirked. - "Always good with words."
"I just blamed you because I was angry." - She stated.
"I get it, don't worry. I'd be angry too if I were in your shoes!" - I tried to empathize.
"I am angry at all this talking! Shut the fuck up and fight before I shift and attack the lot of you!" - Delta aunt Denise shouted at us. We immediately resumed training.
2 hours in, we are headed back to the pack house, exhausted. Today is pack bag (I stay at the pack house cause there's no one in my home, since both my parents are working and my brother is in daycare).
"Good morning, dear nephew. You can go directly to the warrior's locker room. Your towel is already there waiting." - Uncle Felix greeted me. I do need a shower. We all do.
I do as he instructed and my cousins go to their rooms. They take their towels, a change of clothes and go to different bathrooms to take a bath.
After the shower, I get dressed and go to the play room. Since I'm not allowed to go to Rosalyn's room, I stay over there waiting. And waiting. And... lunch!
She never came to see me. I guess she was still pissed at the situation.
"Son, are you excited about Friday?" - Uncle Felix started, as we ate the meal prepared for us. Both my parents cooked well, but nothing beats the pack house cooks. The food was always delicious, be it breakfast, lunch or dinner. Though the last time I ate breakfast here was when Matt was born and my parents were at the hospital. I was 4.
At the dining hall table, everyone had their seats pretty much reserved. At the head, evidently, the Alpha couple, followed by their immediate family. After that, other family members and mates, then warriors, then unmated folk. They were people over the age of 18 that have not found their mates but didn't want to live with their parents either.
The pack house have rules, of course, but they come and go as they please. They only need to give notice to the kitchen so to not waste food in case they don't come to eat, but lots of them worked outside the pack so it's mostly us and the warriors at lunch. Not all the warriors lived in the pack house, of course. It was mostly unmated ones or mated without pups. Once you start a family, you rent a house inside the compound like Emmett's best friend's dad did, Mr. Johnson.
"It's all he talks about it, daddy." - Rosalyn interjected.
"Yes, daddy. I hope she comes. Plus, I haven't seen granddad in a while. Last time he showed me his gun!" - Emm sounded excited.
My uncles gasped.
"Hopefully, he'll retire it like his job. Although, I find it very hard. He has a collection of them!" - Uncle Felix spoke, not very pleased. For Texans, neither one of the Ford twins were very fan of guns.
"Are you okay, Rosalyn, I mean after yesterday's news?" - Uncle Dan asked her, worriedly.
"I am dad, I was crushed, of course, but at least I'm not gonna be a teen mom!" - She replied. I was confused.
"Why would you be crushed? I thought you're relieved!" - I asked her, puzzled.
"It's complicated, John, I'll give permission to your mom to explain to you, okay?" - She offered.
"Okay, I guess." - I mumbled. Why wound't SHE explain it to me?
"Uncle Tony, was it difficult for you to go college away from your mate like my mom, or it's easier for guys?" - I asked him, curiously.
"It's worse for guys, actually, because your mom doesn't think with... never mind. But no, it wasn't easy for me. But I knew there was nothing I could do here. I mean, I could be a warrior, I have the training, but come on. Have you met Denise? Can you imagine if she was my boss on top of being my mate?" - He smirked. We all laughed except for Aunt Denise, who scowled.
"No, I can't imagine, uncle!" - I laughed.
"Why? Are you thinking about college already? Aren't you a freshman?" - He asked, quizzically.
"I am, but will be a softmore next Fall. But yes, I think I want to study something like engineering. I mean, it's not like I'm gonna be Beta." - I croaked. Emmett avoided looking at me.
"I think it's great, son. Good for you. Maybe your mate will go to the same college as you. Who knows? My advice is apply everywhere! There are a lot of successful mates who attended college together and have good careers!" - He advised me, with a smile. I was happy to hear him out.
"Hopefully you don't impregnate any more girls until them!" - Emmett joked. His dads didn't laugh. Neither did mine. But everyone else stared at me, except for Ros.
"I didn't impregnate anyone!" - I rebuked, angrily. - "Plus, there's only one girl that I love!" - I continued, avoiding to look at Rosalyn.
She certainly wasn't looking at me. That was an awkward lunch. And my mom wasn't even there to make inappropriate comments this time. I brushed my teeth and went to the play room. But this time, I texted her if she wanted to talk. She said she was gonna chill in her room.
Fuck! This was bad. I knew I was fucked if she got pregnant, but I didn't think I'd be this fucked if she was NOT.
Uncle Felix took pity on me and kept me company. This is the state I was. I think I need friends!
"Is she mad at you still?" - He asked me, carefully.
"I wouldn't know, she hasn't talked to me since yesterday." - I replied, sadly.
"Hang in there, nephew, she's just going through a lot." - He tried to console me.
"What was that at lunch? What does she have?" - I asked him, worriedly.
"It's better if my sister explains it, but she has a condition that makes it very difficult for her to get pregnant. So not only she wasn't pregnant, she found out she can't get even if she wants." - He explained. Wow! That sucks. No wonder she was so sad. At least it wasn't at me.
"Uncle Felix, can you make an exception of the room rule just for today? I swear on my life I will not take advantage!" - I pleaded.
"You may go, but only for an hour, tops." - He answered and I kissed his cheek I was so happy.
"Thank you, I won't let you down!" - I said as I bolt towards her room.
I knocked, since we can't hear from inside the room, she opened and was shocked to see me.
"Are you crazy? If daddy catches you here he'll put a guard on me 24/7!" - She spat at me, worriedly.
"I asked his permission first. I'm not an idiot!" - I smirked as I entered her room.
"OK, I'm not in the mood to talk!" - She started, sounding defeated.
"It's fine, I just want to hold you if I'm allowed." - I said without missing a beat.
"Just hold me?" - She looked at me doubtfully.
"Rosalyn, yesterday we thought we were pregnant. Trust me when I say: sex is the least on my mind right now!" - I snickered.
I mean, I didn't lie. It wasn't indeed.
I lay next to her on the bed, just holding her close.
"Plus, I could never betray Uncle Felix's trust. He's literally my only uncle. I mean..."
"I got it!" - She cut me off.
We just stood there, holding each other. I understood she just wanted to be held. And I wanted to be there for her. In any capacity I can. If I'm honest, I could hold her forever! I didn't need to leave, only needed to be next to her.
Her scent calms me like nothing else. I guess that's what true love should be about: making sure the other person is cared for. That they're not alone even if they wanted to be. Not to crowd or annoy them, just be there quiet, warm, attentive, waiting for her to want more!
And for that, for her, I would wait an eternity. And there's nothing in the world that could keep me from being with her.
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