Bakugo stares at him for a few more seconds, and all the while his chest squeezes tighter and tighter. He clenches his jaw, hands gripping into his black shorts as he forces his face not to break.
Pure rage floods through him, and his stomach churns, skin tingling as he stands and stomps to the bed.
Kirishima looks effectively panicked as Bakugo grabs him by his shirt. The blonds nostrils flare, as he watches Kirishima drop his book. It hits the floor with a numbing thud and the red heads brows are tented high, worry laced into every feature on his face,"Bakugo are you ok!?"
Why is he worried about him! He should be worried about himself!
"Why would you do that!?" He yells and his voice cracks. Embarrassment runs through him for a single moment before it's replaced with more rage,"You can't take too many pills kirishima! Taking more makes it worse, you fucking idiot! You almost died!"
The alpha breathes hard as Bakugo clenches his teeth, and the red head looks to be on the verge of tears just as Bakugo is.
He watches as Kirishima's brows push together, red swimming with white as his eyes fill with tears. He holds onto Bakugos wrist like a vice, and Bakugo feels horrible as he watches the other boy close his eyes and break out into a sob.
"I know, I'm sorry." He shakes out, and hides his face into the part of the shirt that's yanked out away from his chest with Bakugos fist curled into it,"I didn't mean to... I just..."
Bakugo stares at him, and he watches as his friend shivers bodily, hands shaking on the omegas wrist.
Bakugo brings in a deep breath, feeling his heart beat hard with every shakey sob that comes out of his alpha. Kirishima sniffles, obviously trying to stop.
But sometimes thats hard.
He brings in another deep breath, and he's suprised when a sob of his own breaks from his constricted chest. He shifts forward, and forces his way into the red heads arms, tucking his face close to the scent patches that cover Kirishima's earthy scent.
Kirishima practically rag dolls, falling limp into the other boys arms as Bakugo sits on the bed and holds him. Bakugo scents hard, wanting to see the alphas face but he doesn't wanna force Kirishima from his neck.
Kirishima breathes hard against his neck, and Bakugo puts out heavy scent, brushing gentle fingers through the back of his hair, and squeezing him in a tight hug. Bakugo brings in another deep, stuttered breath, and forces himself to quiet his own crying so he can be there for Kirishima.
Its Kirishima's turn to be babied.
Its silent for a really long time. Bakugo knows that they sat there for at least 15 minutes before either of them said anything at all, the only sound being Kirishima's occasional sniffle as he calmed down. Bakugo just continued to hug him and rub a gentle hand against his scalp.
"I didn't mean to..." The red head whispers,"I didn't wanna kill myself, that wasn't my intention." He hiccups softly before snuggling impossibly closer,"My rut started... I dunno why but I woke up and I was so hot and sweaty. I thought taking more pills would calm me down but I passed out like 5 minutes after I downed them. It was so sudden I didn't have time to ask for help."
Bakugo pulls back finally, and their eyes meet. It's awkward, and they both jerk their teary eyes away as they wipe at them fiercly. It's embarrassing.
"How in the fuck did your rut start?" He asks as they finally pull away from eachother to have some breathing space. Kirishima fidgets with the drip line hooked into his arm, then he sighs and flushes as he reaches up at his still leaking eyes.
"Your scent..." He swallows, and sniffs,"I hadn't smelled your scent in such a long time... And I dunno if it was because my rut was so overwhelming this time, or if I didn't take my meds right, but I could smell you for the first time since I've started taking the meds and I... I just..." The alpha shrugs awakwardly, jerking his head to the side as he struggles to finish his words.
Bakugo stares at him, honestly at a loss for words. He knew he shouldn't have scented Kirishima in the damn kitchen. He did it while he was giving the alpha his plate of food but never in his fucking mind did he process that "hey dumbass, you might send your best friend into rut if you scent him."
Bakugo huffs, suddenly embarrassed. Fuck.
"I was careless." He murmurs, and Kirishima glances at him, ruby eyes nervous.
"N-No!" He yelps urgently, and grabs Bakugo's hands tight. Bakugo notices how he trembles immediately, but the red head doesn't even give him a second to ask,"I... You um... You can't help it that my AHI was acting up so bad yesterday..."
"Yeah, but I..." Bakugo pouts, and stares hard at the floor, glaring at it as if it had personally offended him. He shifts in his spot uncomfortably,"I should've known better... I knew you weren't doing ok, and I... I treated you like shit. So..."
"No I..." Kirishima stares down at the bed, his eyes growing sad and upset, almost disgusted with nothing but himself,"You had every right to be mad. And I shouldn't have lashed out on you because of it..." He brings in a deep breath, and he presses his lips together,"I'm the one... I forced myself on you... And I was... I was upset about it even though I'm the one that did it. And my AHI was so bad... I just... I couldn't keep it together. So I'm sorry for what I did... I'm so sorry."
"Jesus Christ." Bakugo scoots forward and pulls the other boy into his arms. Kirishima is crying again, and the blond fights against the urge to scent him again.
"You didn't force yourself on me..." He whispers, and Kirishima shakes his head,"No listen dumbass, you didn't." Bakugo brings in a stuttered breath of his own as Kirishima presses his face close to his scent gland,"I wanted you... I wanted you to be... With me..." He swallows, face growing hotter with each passing second. His own body is stiff with the fear of being rejected, and he's terrified of what Kirishima will say when he finds out. But Bakugo just can't keep it in anymore. He feels selfish, keeping this to himself while Kirishima suffers so much.
"Kirishima..." Bakugo pulls back, and the alpha is still crying. Bakugo wishes he could find a way to make him stop,"I wanted you to be with me during my heat..."
"Wha...?" Kirishima sniffles, and stares at him, eyes confused as his brows furrow,"You... Did? But you pushed me away. You said you didn't want me in your room. In your nest."
"Because I was in heat dumbass, and I didn't have control over my words. We didn't do the paper work. And it was horrible timing." Bakugo swallows, face feeling too warm as he fidgets with Kirishima's hand in his own. The alpha stares down at Bakugo's mindless touching, and the omega sighs as he feels just a little too overwhelmed,"So I said whatever I could to get you out of my room, and since I was in heat I had zero control over my vocabulary."
Kirishima stares at him, then nods, flushing as he looks to the side with realization in his eyes,"So you-"
"I wanted you to fuck me, ok. Damn." Bakugo snaps and looks sharply towards the window. His face in burning with embarrassment. Kirishima makes a choked sound in his throat, and the blond closes his eyes as he clenches his jaw, trying to calm down his raging heart. He's never confessed to someone like this before. He's never felt like this before.
The crimson eyed boy forces himself to look Kirishima in the eyes, and the alpha openly mirrors his face, their expressions flushed, embarrassed, and scared. They both knew this would happen eventually. Bakugo was hoping it'd be under better circumstances than Kirishima almost dying, but he'll take what he can get.
"I like you." Kirishima whispers,"I like you so much." Kirishima sounds out of breath as he says it, ruby eyes searching the omegas face with eager want,"More than a friend. I mean it this time."
Bakugo brings in a stuttered breath, and he unconsciously squeezes Kirishima's hand, staring down at it with perplexing anxiety. He's never done this before. He's had crushes, but Kirishima doesn't compare to any of them.
"Bakugo?" Kirishima looks at him eagerly, obviously expecting some kind of reaction out of the other boy. But Bakugo just can't seem to move, afraid that his quirk will light up if he does. His hands sweat profusely, and he leans forward stiffly, pressing his face into the crook of Kirishima's neck.
"You know right?" He whispers, and Kirishima swallows as Bakugo wraps his arms around him finally,"You know?"
"Yeah I know." The red head doesn't seem confused at all as he hugs the smaller man back, their minds seeming to think as one as they sit there and hug.
"You're my..." Bakugo chokes it off, the words stuck in his throat. Fuck he can't say it,"Its a ten percent chance Kirishima."
"I know." The alpha nuzzles his face into the other boys neck, and they sit there for a really long time, the words sinking in with the harsh reality of becoming an adult. They're both turning 17 this year. One more and they'll be there.
"I'm sorry for the way I treated you." Kirishima whispers suddenly,"I'm sorry I'm not able to be a good alpha for you. I wanted to try so hard, but I can't."
"Its not your fault." Bakugo mutters, and clings to him. He can feel how thin Kirishima is. His muscle is still there, but his body mass is just gone. He really hasn't ate all week has he? Hell, he was hardly eating before Bakugo even went into heat, so its definitely been longer than a week.
He can hear how wheezed Kirishima's breath is, he can see how tired he is everytime he looks into his eyes. Those dark circles that are against pale skin just stand out too much.
Bakugo can feel him shiver from the cold in this room, he can feel his muscles twitch with exhaustion. Bakugo wishes he could do something. Anything.
He pulls back quietly, and Kirishima brings in a deep breath as he smiles at the omega. This one reaches his eyes, and Bakugo feels his heart warm as he finally gets to see him smile again. It's... A sweet feeling.
It's sappy and he hates it,"Do you want another blanket?" He asks quietly, clicking the call button before Kirishima even answers.
They're quiet as they wait for a nurse to come, and Bakugo stares down, mildly watching as Kirishima laces their fingers together gently. Bakugo can't help it as his heart starts beating in his chest in a low, slow thrum, his eyes meeting Kirishima's again as the alpha leans forward. He brings in another deep, stuttered breath, and closes his eyes as gentle lips press to his forehead.
The door opens, and they both jerk away, hands retracting as a nurse steps in. She glances at each of them, and Bakugo glares at her, daring her to say something about it.
She doesn't though, and walks over with a gentle smile on her face,"Here sweetheart... I'm sure you were calling for a blanket?" She says softly, and although Bakugo wants to yell at her for assuming shit- even if she is right- Kirishima cuts him off with a cheery smile.
"Yeah! Thankyou..." He takes the soft, red and pink blanket she offers him, and the red head stares at it with fond eyes,"My moms left this here didn't they?"
"Yes honey." The nurse says softly and reaches over to grab some of the medicines she'd carried in with her,"These are your new neutralizers and rut blockers. They're stronger doses but the doctor said that they shouldn't cause as much trouble."
Bakugo snatches them from her before Kirishima can even touch them. She starts to protest, but he shoots her an evil glare, and Kirishima politely apologizes for him.
"Would you like something easy for your stomach honey...?" She says as she walks over to check his monitors and stuff. Bakugo listens to their mild chatter as he reads the side effects of the new medicine.
"Uh- Yeah! Do you have Jello or something?"
"Of course dear."
-Nausea, fatigue, blurred vision-
"You have the red Jello right, that ones my favorite. Not the cherry, but the strawberry?"
"Yup, do you want one or two cups?"
"Can I have three, haha!"
-unstable equilibrium, quirk malfunction, dysfunctional scenting, dysfunctional reaction to scenting-
"My lord, are you hungry?" She giggles.
"I just thought I'd try and eat before I leave and I won't be able to control my hormone levels as good as I can here."
-troubled sleeping, depression, if patient is mated already and the disease is due to other problems then they may have irrational issues with clinging to a mate, if not mated: they may cling to close relatives or someone they're very fond of, mating can only occur during a rut-
The list keeps going and going. Bakugo feels sick to his stomach just reading it, and he feels absolutely horrible for being mad at Kirishima now. He had no right to be mad at him. He had no right. No right at all. Look at this fucking list.