"It hurts, everything hurts, and everything is buzzing,

The world is buzzing still. I couldn't prevent

Hase from reaching the point she did, it's my fault. It wasn't an

Unavoidable outcome! I could have kept trying to prevent this

Risk from happening, I could have stopped

This terrible outcome from happening! I could have

Stopped it. I should have insisted on getting Hase and Leah to

End these extreme diets of theirs! I'm

Very certain that this started way before I came home and

Everything just started to unravel and spiral

Relatively early on when I returned from Chicago!

Yes, it's possible that

Hase and Leah had restrictive diets since going to that school!

I should have pushed harder to

Not let this happen, but I

Guess I'm useless as useless comes. If I

Hadn't gone to Macedonia, maybe this wouldn't have happened! But,

Ugh, it's too late to change it! I went, and I

Regret it! Is Leah okay? She might be close

To collapse too. Natalie never kept her promise, either.

She didn't talk to their acting coaches! It's my fault for not continuing to

Beg and push her to talk to their acting coaches! All of this is my fault.

Ugh, my chest is burning, my head is

Tinging, my legs are boiling, my chest

Is throbbing. Stop, stop,

Can you please stop?

All of this is my fault, I

Need to do something! I have

To go to that college now and confront those

Jokers that call themselves acting coaches, but

Unless I can manage to get out of bed and

Somehow convince Pira

This can't wait until next week, it's

Likely not happening today.

I've been told to rest, but I can't just lie here!

Everything is fine,

I can tune all this out! We

Need to address this now!

But, there's no way Pira and Varg are going to let me leave my bed.

Everything is fine, we can't put a pin in this! We

Don't have the luxury to let this

Wait! And, what is everyone going to eat? Everyone

Has to eat. Pira and Varg will

Order out if I don't cook

Something! And Leah is

Going to starve. Natalie will encourage her to skip breakfast because I won't be able to make it! And,

Of course, Strix will probably just eat a whole lot of canned beans and nothing else

In the evening! I

Need to cook for my brothers, my sisters, my family! They're not

Going to eat healthy if I don't!

Though, I know they're

Obviously going to try and stop me. At least Deigr and

Coiote aren't around to run their mouths, but

Oh, no, everyone will

Order out if they

Keep me in here!

They'll order out every single day! I can't lay

Here! It's fine,

Everyone falls over sometimes,

Yes, it happens to everyone. It's not

Like this is a big deal, it's not

Like this needs attention

Or anything! Hase and Leah's acting coaches

Running rampant with insisting on an extreme

Diet is the big deal here! Delaying this by

Even a day, we're

Risking Leah collapsing next! We can't allow

That! I need to convince Pira and Varg I

Am just a little tired, but they

Keep not buying it when I say

Everything is fine, I am

Obviously completely transparent to them.

Ugh, there's no way I can convince

Them I

Am just a little tired, I am

Going to have to do

All I can

In the end that this is something that should

Not wait! The

Acting coaches are only going to make this worse

Now if they learn what happened to Hase! I

Don't know, I just have this sinking feeling! If something happens to

Leah, we can't postpone this for

Even a day! We

Absolutely cannot!

Hase and Leah, they need help!

We can't postpone this!

It'll spiral out of control if we

Let this sit! We can't

Let this sit! If we

Keep postponing this,

Everything will break!

Everything will fall apart! I'm

Pretty sure everything is

Going to fall apart!

Once everything falls apart,

It'll all get worse! We

Need to do something! But, I

Guess I will be trapped in my bed prison. And,

What about my fight with Firat

In three weeks? If I don't go

To the battle, I'll be labeled a coward! I

Have to go, I

Have no choice but to go in three weeks.

Everyone will be at

Risk if I

Don't! And,

I can't let anything happen to my family. If I don't go,

Everything will fall apart.

There's no way Firat

Is going to take kindly if they see me as a

Coward! They'll use it

As a reason to attack my family! There's

No way

That I can skip that fight! I can't

Rest! I simply just can't!

Everything will be fine,

So, I can't just sit here in bed like

This! Ah, by the skies, everything is buzzing."