"Harvey you know we can't do this anymore. Stop making excuses to come and find me. You look pathetic. It's over. This is goodbye." Without a warning, she was out of my life. The only woman I've ever loved so far in my life just walked away without so much as a backward glance in my direction.
Before I could stop myself, my arm stretched out towards her. My legs carrying me back to her. She was just a breath away from me again. I could almost smell her rose scented perfume. Her soft hand was a hair away from my own.
I jolt awake and smack my hand down on the blaring alarm clock. With a sigh, I swing my legs onto the floor and start my day. I warm up the shower and face my tired reflection. My hair is all over the place from tossing about in my sleep. My eyes, which are usually a clear blue, are now clouded.
I shake my head and remove my shorts. I step into the shower and get lost in my thoughts.
This isn't the first time I've had dreams about her, nor will it be the last. It's been two years already, but everything still feels fresh in my mind. Before we started to date, we had already been friends for several years, so when she wasn't in my life anymore it felt odd. I can't remember when I started to like her, but when I realized it myself I told her immediately. I can only wonder now if I made the right choice. In hindsight, it wasn't a good relationship, but that doesn't help me much when these dreams still haunt me.
I exit the shower and wrap a towel around my waist. I grab a towel for my hair and go to get dressed for the day. A faint buzzing pulls my eyes to the nightstand. I sit on my bed and answer the call. Who would be calling me at 11:30 in the morning on a Saturday?
"Hello?" I put my hair towel beside me and lay back on my bed.
"Harvey! Where are you? You're fifteen minutes late! Are you on your way?" It was Oliver, my closest friend in this world.
"Oliver, what are you talking about? We agreed to meet for lunch at noon." I put emphasis on the last word. I hear silence on the other end. I pull the phone away from my ear to see if the call disconnected because he was silent for a bit.
"Wait. Then what did I have to do at 11:00 today?"
"You wanted to grab a coffee from that shop you like before the lines got too long." I heard him curse under his breath and start to scramble to get up.
"Thanks, Harv. What would I do without you?" I sit up on my bed and hear his car unlock over the phone.
"You would sleep your life away, that's what. I'll meet you at the restaurant." I hang up and place my phone back down, careful not to knock over my glasses or lamp.
"That boy is so scatterbrained," I say through a laugh.
Oliver is my one tried and true friend in this world. We've been friends since elementary school. I thought he was annoying at first. He talked a lot back then and I'm still a reserved person to this day. I'm not sure what he saw in me, but he decided he liked me and stuck around. I'm thankful he did because I can't imagine my life without him now.
After I get dressed, I made my way back to the bathroom to tame my hair, taking my glasses with me to clean them off. I have thick black hair that I wear a little long. I grew it out one summer in high school and decided that I liked it.
Once I have everything I need, I head out the door to my own car. Lucky for me, the restaurant is a fifteen-minute drive from my house.
I get there right on time and reserve us a table. Oliver said he had something important he wanted to tell me about, so I don't mind if he's a little late considering we're meeting on his time.
After a ten minute wait, Oliver finally shows up. I flag him over and notice he looks out of breath.
"Everything okay, Oliver?" I also notice that he's wearing a triumphant smile. He then holds up an empty coffee cup.
"Yeah! I managed to beat the line..by cutting in line when the person in front of me went to the bathroom." Oliver says while looking a little sheepish.
"He asked me to hold his spot, which I did, but when my turn came he was nowhere in sight. So I ordered and explained the situation to the woman behind me. The problem was that she didn't care, so when the man returned, he was furious with me. I barely finished my coffee before I ran out of the place." Oliver explains it all with a smile. He somehow manages to always cause trouble and narrowly avoids getting beaten up. His brown hair is always windblown from literally running from people he's angered. His hazel eyes always shine when he's feeling particularly mischevious or surprised.
"Oliver you haven't changed a bit," I say with a smile. Before he can reply a waitress comes over and takes our order. After she leaves I ask him why he called this meeting.
"Oh! So, Lillie and I are finally having a baby!" He states this with a grin too big for his face. I can see the true joy in his eyes.
"Well, it's about time. You guys have been married for five years now. Either way, congratulations, Oliver. I'm happy for you two." I remember when they met. Oliver was so nervous to ask her out. He was even more nervous when he asked for her hand.
"Thanks, Harv. We haven't even told her parents yet. We agreed that you should be the very first to know."
"Why is that? I figured that you always tell parents before friends."
"Because you gave me the courage to even approach Lillie. Without your help, I wouldn't be married to the love of my life. So Lillie and I agree that you should be the godmother." I shoot him a questioning look and he busts out laughing. Just then our food comes.
"But in all seriousness, Harvey, we want you to be the godparent of our child. We couldn't think of anyone else who would be more suited than you." Oliver flashed me one of his rare, genuine smiles.
"Well then, I'm honored to accept the position. Thank you." After that, we ate in content silence. I never expected to be so important in someone's life, much less two people.
After we finished up, an hour had gone by and I didn't know what to do with the rest of my day. Normally on weekends I just try to sleep the day away. As the two of us walked to my car, I hear Oliver's phone go off, letting him know that he received a text.
"Hey, Harvey. I just got a text from Lillie. She's mad that you haven't been by to see her lately." He said with a laugh as we climb into my car.
"If you're not busy, care to come over? Maddie misses you, too." He says as I pull out into the street
"That dog drools all over me everytime I see her," I say with a shiver, remembering all of the times that dog made my pants soaked with drool.
"It's her way of showing love. Come on, I know you don't have anything else planned today. Come over and I promise to keep Maddie from drooling too much." He knows he's right about my schedule because I do the same thing every weekend.
"Fine. But if that dog makes a puddle in my lap I'm leaving." I jump onto the highway and make my way to Oliver's house. Oliver looks thrilled and texts back Lillie.
I met Lillie in one of my classes in freshman college. We were working on a project in my dorm and Oliver came over unannounced. Lillie was a little mad for being interrupted and decided to come back later. Oliver was crazy about her from that moment on. They started talking and things picked up after that. It was clear to me that they really liked each other. I had to push him into asking her out because he always backed out last second.
We pull up to Oliver's house and I realize that they've been working on the yard. There's a flourishing garden in the front now filled yellow daisies and rich red roses. Closer to the front door I see some soft looking lilacs and some blue flowers I don't recognize. On the porch I see Lillie reading a book.
"Hey, Lillie. How are you?" At the sound of my voice, she jumps up and greets me with a hug. She then pulls away and then smacks my arm.
"Harvey Amari where have you been? You know you have to come and see me every so often or I'll think you died." She laughs and Oliver comes over and kisses her cheek.
"Harvey prefers to sleep his days away instead of hanging out with us, Lills. It seems that he doesn't care about us anymore." Oliver has a cheeky grin on his face. I shake my head and laugh.
"Come on, you knuckleheads. Let's go inside so we can catch up, even though it's only been a month." They lead the way and I follow inside. The house hasn't changed at all, it's still so full of life and happy memories.
"A lot can change in a month, you know. What if you decided to shave away all your hair?" Lillie says as she serves us lemonade.
"He'd never do that. Harv likes his hair too much." Oliver says as we all sit in the living room.
"Hey wait, where is Maddie?" I ask as I glance around nervously.
"I locked her up in the room, but I have half a mind to let her out," Lillie says with a smile.
"Well enough on that. I heard that you're going to be a mom soon, Congratulations, are you excited?" I ask and take a sip from my glass. I see Lillie touch her stomach gently and smile.
"I'm ecstatic, Harvey. We've been trying and it hasn't been working out until now. I'm so excited to be a mom. Did Oliver tell you the other bit of news?"
"He did. I'm honored to be the godfather of your child. I'm really happy for you guys." I say with a genuine smile. Lillie has such an infectious glow about her that you can always find yourself smiling when you're around her. She's going to be a wonderful mother.
"Oh hey. Speaking of girls, how is that girl you met a little while ago? Any progress with that?" Oliver asks as he gets up and heads to the pantry for a snack.
"Katie? I'd say things are going..well." I glanced out the window to hide my smile.
I met her one day when I had a business trip an hour away from my town. She came to give me some papers needed for the project I was working on. I kept finding reasons to go and see her because I enjoyed her company and found her to be sweet as can be. Closer to when I had to leave, we exchanged numbers and have been talking to each other almost every day since then.
"If I didn't know better, I would say that you have a crush, Harvey," Lillie said with a knowing look in her eyes. Oliver came back into the room with a plate of crackers.
"I don't know about that, but I do enjoy having her around a lot. We've been on some casual dates when our schedules allow it. We met up a few weeks ago and had dinner, but we do stay in contact through texts and calls. Unless I'm mistaken, it's been three months since we exchanged numbers." I admit and hide my face in my cup, taking a long drink. I'm trying my best to keep my tone of voice casual.
"Harvey that's wonderful. You have to bring her around sometime so we can formally meet her." Lillie said with a big smile on her lips.
"Why not next weekend? We can all go to the Fireworks Festival downtown and get to know each other." Oliver suggests with a mouth full crackers.
"If her schedule allows that sounds great. I'll ask her tonight." I say with a small smile on my own lips.
After that, we talked and caught up until the sun went down. Oliver had to confess where his car went, but Lillie has come to expect these things from him and playfully scolded him for it. I ended up leaving their house at around 10:00 that night in a great mood.
"I'll see you soon, Harvey. Don't let so much time pass before I see you again." Lillie said with a hug.
"Yeah, man. Don't be a stranger or I'll have to come and drag you back here by your hair." Oliver said with a laugh and a hug of his own.
"Alright, I promise I'll visit more often. Goodnight, guys. I'll send word once I make it home." I walk back out to my car and head home.
Once I make it inside I decide to sit in the living room. I turn on the tv for background noise and pull my phone out to text Oliver and Lillie that I made it home safely. But before I can do that I see that I already have a text I never answered because my phone was silenced. It was Katie who sent me a text hours ago. She was asking for another date next weekend.
I quickly text back my reply and my plan that I conjured up with Lillie. Katie seems excited about the festival and agrees to come down. She eventually asks if now is a good time to call, saying that she misses my voice.
The call lasts for almost three hours, just because we enjoy talking to each other. I have to hang up because Katie falls asleep on me, though I only notice because I hear her softly snoring. I end up falling asleep on my couch, excited for the upcoming weekend.