Dear Whoever Cares,
May 19th, 2018
I can't sleep sometimes. Those sometimes I'm going to start coming here to write out whats going on in my head. So this is going to be like an anonymous diary for whoever cares. Let's see if you can dive into my head and help me out.
There's a girl in my life who I really like. She's pretty and funny and overall a friend that I'm glad I met. The other week we saw a movie together as friends because she doesn't that I have feelings. We took our seats in the dark theater and prepared to watch the movie. Now I'm normally a wuss and I'll freely admit that so I was nervous that I was going to say something stupid and let her on that I like her. So my tactic was to wait until she said something and just let the conversation flow naturally. Did not work.
There was something of note though. Whenever she would talk to me she would lean over the armrest, get real close and whisper into my ear. Her being so close made my heart pound almost out of my chest. She was good at doing that. The faintest touch of her arm against mine would send electricity through my body and she wouldn't even realize. If that's not a perfect representation of my love life I don't know what is.
Then we get to the sad part of the movie. Some background context, we had both seen this movie before but we were bored and wanted to see it again but this part never fails to make me sad or tear up. Now when this scene starts playing we gradually moved closer and closer together until we were shoulder to shoulder, cheek to cheek. We were so close and while she was focusing on the movie, I was focusing on her. I don't think I was ever more terrified or excited in my life.
The scene ends, as does the movie and we walk out of the theater. She gets picked up by her dad and I walk home and the entire walk back I can only think of that one part where we were so close together. Now I'll admit that I doubt she's ever going to like me let alone date me but it made me happy nonetheless. I just wish we could do that more often than we do.
Well that's all for tonight folks, good night/morning