When people are in pain, might it be physical or mental they look for a great escape. Mine were his lips, him,the intoxicating and beautiful Leviticus Cain.
He was my heaven, my reprieve from reality. I would forget even who I was everytime we were close. I wasn't that forgotten bullied girl anymore. He saw me, and it made me feel bigger than I was each and every time.
I was a woman in his eyes.
Those blue eyes...the silky glossy hair, body lean with muscle, young and admirable. He had everyone’s attention, a teacher of any schoolgirls fantasy including mine but I felt things were different every time we locked eyes. I felt special.
But special is a dangerous word. Even devils use the word if they desire your soul; however, many men are devils, although not many grow horns.
Though Leviticus Cain wasn't just in my daydreams, he was in my reality too. The small trail of warmth from his touches were real, and the way his eyes saw right through me, and how every time we parted the desk I sat on felt a little colder.
Like many things, Leviticus Cain was a master of seduction.
In times like this, I also think of him, another escape of mine although he was different. Valis… was a man, almost but not not quite. He wanted to be seen as one. We were similar in this manner, both of us wanting to grow up fast.
He was a little older than me and also taller. He was a senior at the school we attended. And he was Intimidating to any grade below him or anyone at all to which stood in his path.
Like many in highschool, he wanted to prove himself and he did. Though he did not go about it the right way, he targeted those beneath him, including me at times.
A bully he was but most girls which weren’t being humiliated by him, were simply arm candy. They were just another kiss on the lips and all that was left behind from their love was a stain on their bedsheets and he’d be gone the next morning.
But as there is with every bully, beneath is a child, a small one to which wants to be seen. There were many times I felt this when I was in his embrace because we were secretly the same. Despite my denial we had a bond like no other, we also shared blood.
Valis Emerson is my cousin.
Both my loves were forbidden, no matter how guilty I’d become I would continue to lose myself, over and over until my harsh reality was no more and all I had room for was them.
I fell into the arms of two devils who would refuse to let me go and I would face the consequences for that and my actions, but for now, I should start from the beginning, my first day of school or perhaps even before then, this all started when I moved to this town.
In all honesty I am just a dull and ordinary girl. I am far from special- it was just what I thought I was to them.
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