paracetamoore | Tapas Creator

I tried drawing a manga page... a monologue. and I kinda messed up the eye distance but anyway, I think I have to post this on my wall. I drew this with medibang paint last year for hours when I could just draw it traditionally on shorter period of time. gosh. This frustrated me a lot and made me realize the demands of digital arts.

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paracetamoore creator Aug 23, 2021

Hello. I changed a lot in closure after basically wasting too much time for that long 1st chapter. I was aiming for a little comedy and slight drama feels for the first one but now I feel like I wanted it to be melodramatic instead. It's hard to think of joke when i don't have a funny bone. Just that, the update will not be consistent because I have class and I have to fix my grades or else, i'll lose my scholarship. hahahaha. I know i'm fucked up, having time for this and messing up my studies. I want to say it's just my mood but damn, it's hard being bipolar. Just six months ago, I was doing good, topping the class and all, then now, for some fucked reason, I can't even open my social media accounts and can't write a simple essay about globalization. i have incomplete grade in a general education subject which should be an easy A. I know there's nothing to be scared of, if i was being rational. It's just I've been trying to pick myself back up since may but it'll be september soon and I just logged on in my uni website to enroll and damn, I almost missed enrollment. Gee. writing it here lets me dump it for once. So that, hopefully, I can finally pick myself to my normal functioning and responsible self. Damn, I feel so down. I'm so disappointed with myself.