I Woke. to the sounds of things being russled close to my ears, bird sound from outside a window, the feeling of a soft fresh linnin across my skin all of my skin…well almost I felt the smooth comfort of silk across my privets and my tummy I sat up my shoulder hurting a little, I opened my eyes , Daylight, My body laid in a bed with a clean red duvet cover and sheet on, my little silk nightie of cream with white lace I noticed the other side of this double bed was made till a black cat jumped on the bed it had a bit of paper that it dropped on the bed it read:

Y/n, I love you X

Is Y/n the cat’s name? or my name? I dont know, I saw a little brown side table with a little lamp and a glass of water beside it as well as a little empty pot the cat jumped off the bed when a clutter was heard from a door across the room, the room was painted a similar red to the bed sheet, badly, the wall the bed was on had wallpaper, Black and red flowers, I was confused, lost everything so unfamiliar to me I heard music start in the room to the outside of this…well bedroom I assume it was sweet music nothing I knew quiet enough to hear little sounds of movement in the other rooms I looked around for information but nothing seemed familiar at all

“Hey, Look who’s Up this morning” A man smiled leaning on the door frame he was skinny, lanky, dirty blonde fairly long hair a tiny bit of stubble that seemed like it had been shaved recently but he was bad at it he smiled at me and moved to be sat beside me on the bed, all things considered, I had imagined worse situations of waking up with much less attractive guys “How did you sleep?” he asks me

“uhhhhhh” I stutter trying to find words but none arrived at my mouth

“Okay, I take it, its not a good day today?” he asks me what does me mean? “Remember that honey? what Dr Lester said, you need to do your practice every morning” He told me Practice? something in my head knew something about practice “You want to try?” he asked me I kept thinking for a little while for ages

“My Name is Y/n… I live in london… I’m Y/A years old…” i recite from my memory he smiled at me kissing my head

“You are amazing, that’s the best you’ve done in weeks” He smiled at me “First time you’ve got your name right in about a month” he laughed at me “Do you…know who I am?” He asked me I looked back in the void of darkness I can see of my memory, I saw nothing of this guy, nothing, who was he? what was he to me? how long had I known him? how long had he known me?

I shake my head, he looked upset, I could tell he seemed heartbroken that I didn’t know who he was

“I’m sorry” I tell him

“Hey, its okay, you’ll get there” He smiled at me going to a little box across the room he had taken the little pot that was on my table when he returned the pot was full of pills I instantly tried to throw them away from me my mind insatnly telling me to throw them away Get rid of them “come on, they’ll help you, Please” he begs me so I took them with the water from my table and he smiled at me “Good girl” he smiled “So breakfast, what do you want?” he asks

“No, I dont want to make any trouble” I tell him

“No trouble” He smiled

“what are you making?” I ask him

“Whatever you want” he smiled

“Uhhh…Pancakes and strawberries?” I ask

“Okay” he laughs kissing my head before wondering out of the room I waited a moment and I could hear the sounds of cooking I got out of bed my feet hurt as they met the cold wooden floor I looked to a mirror on the wall I dont remember much of what i looked like everything seemed pretty and new to me i was adorable I think… I looked to my hands they had scars…what happened to me? I slowly wondered out this room meeting a almost studio apartment a tv on the wall above a fire place, a dinning table with flowers, and this guy stood cooking in the kitchen he turned and saw me “Whoa! your not meant to be out of bed yet!” H told me in panic

“I feel okay” I told him “I wanna explore” I answer quietly

“Well, Okay shout me if you need me for anything okay” he told me so I nod as I looked around the sofa looked so comfy a pillow sat on each side one was Black it had a white motorbike Printed on it and white around the outside, the other had a Pug on a red background, thats a theme I see red and black, the sofa was blue a firm fabric as I ran my hand across it my feet meeting the rug it was soft on my toes, the coffee table a thousand stains from mugs, it made me laugh, I opened the little draw on the side table by the sofa, a puzzle book with the cover ripped off, it looked like word search or code breaking something like that, a couple pens all the cheap blue and black ball point pens, a couple little sweets they looked like Halloween candy…how long have they been in here there was a Tv remote in here, and some lose batteries I amuse new for if they ran out or ones that had ran out, I picked it up and saw what was behind it a wrapper for a Pink Sensitive Condom I giggled at that though the packet was empty I sat on the sofa the side with the pug pillow and turned on the Tv it came on the news, I looked in the planner, Star Wars, Motorbike shows, Thunderbirds, teen wolf, a concert for some band i forget, some race show that was about six hours and a few other old 80′s movies… this who I was before…is this what life was like? got up continuing to wonder I saw a bookshelf all titles I dont remember much about, I saw a little bin by the book self candy wrappers, newspaper pages and cigarette packets, I giggled when I saw the used tied up condom…well that solves the mystery from the packet in the draw, I kept walking the door was a only fashioned wood but had been fixed recently the wood around the lock was…different I wonder why? it had once had windows i think from the shaped but they also had been filled with the only off wood, there was a hook, leather jackets, a cute little blue jacket, some boots and shoes, on the floor flats, heels, all sorts and shapes, there was a hook a lsgo I remember…Mini that’s a car those keys had a cute little Voodo doll key chain it was a little witch on a broomstick, another set was beside it i dont know what logo it took had a voodo doll this one was a little superhero aww, thats sweet, i looked at them both they smelled like copper, like the dirty copper of prizes from a 2p machine, there was another set of keys on the hook house keys and then beside them where keys for something else, it was a vehicle of some sort? I assume from everything else…motorbike keys? I kept wondering to the table my hand followed the little groves on the table on the soft wood, the table had a runner again red and black the flowers in the middle where nice they where purple and red….roses? and something else? i smelt them and my mind remembered

“Roses and Lavender?” I ponder to myself

“Your favorite, they always where” the guy smiled to me putting some plates and such on the table “get sat down breakfast is almost ready” he told me I glanced to the chairs one at each end of the table one had a little cushion on the bottom where you sit the other on the back one was red the other black, I sat on the one with a back cushion and looked around everything seemed so…happy, like something so peaceful

“I hope it doesnt seem too rude…but can I ask your name?” I ask him

“Thomas” he smiled as he brought me a cup over and sat in in front of me before returning to cooking the mug had a red colour and a picture of a broken mirror and text that just read ‘screw it you look beautiful today’ it made me smile a little “You never do remember me” He said sadly

“I am sorry…can you tell me? what happened?” i ask and he froze

“Im not meant to” he told me “Doctors and all” He said bringing me a plate of pancakes and a bowl of strawberries “Strawberries separate I know honey” he smiled kissing the top of my head he got his own food and sat across from me with his own mug, his had a black colour with what looked like space ship on it,

“What can you tell me?” I ask him sipping my mug it had tea nice and sweet, I didn’t think I liked tea, he must know how I like it

“I’m not suppost to tell you anything your meant to work it out yourself, the more you work out yourself the more you’ll remember on your own” he told me

“Please Thomas” I beg

“Okay…you can ask I’ll just answer” he smiled sipping his mug

“did I live here?” I ask

“yeah you did” He laughed

“Did you?” I ask and he nods “what where we?” I ask him he looked heartbroken tears welling up in his eyes he got up and kneeled beside me taking my hand

“You’ll remember me, I promise, I dont know when but somehow some day I swear you will remember me, even if I have to make you fall in love with me all over again” he smiled kissing my hand once I had eaten a bit off food I went back to the room I began in I felt awful, he loved me and i didn’t even remember who he was how could i do that to him, I picked out some clothes from the wardrobe slipping them on I looked under the bed I saw boxes of things one of them hand a pair of handcuffs spilling out of it it made me giggle “you okay?” he asked me

“yeah” i smile

“Okay” he smiled at me coming in and also going though the wardrobe he picked out some clothes looking over at me “There mine you know” He laughed

“They are?” i ask a pit puzzled

“yeah, thats my shirt, and those are not shorts, thats my underwear love” He laughs at me

“Oh sorry” I blush

“its okay, you look cute in my clothes” He smiled at me picking his little pile of clothes up and going to leave

“Where are you going?” i ask him

“I was going to change in the bathroom, thought as you dont know who I am it’d be a little strange” He blushed

“Its okay, its clearly nothing I haven’t seen before” i blush looking under the bed again I saw a thing it looked like a big book I got it out it was a album, I sat on the bed trying to avert my eyes from thomas as he got changed I opened it up the pages so soft and bound in beauty the pages cream and the writing in gold the first page simply read

“For a Eternity seems like Forever, I was happy to spend it with you”

I turned to the next page children, three of them on a street corner surrounded by pigeons some older people where stood in the background space, four of them they seemed familiar to me all of them did, I kept turning children playing and at the beach till the people got older suddenly clearly the same people they looked like young teens cuddling on a beach the sun blocking there faces alot I kept looking more, garden’s theme parks, cities, the same people till I turned a page teenagers they looked awful I could even see the Picture said 2006 at the bottom in that awful camera dated photo look and I remembered a little “Thomas?” I ask

“Yeah?” he asks as he slipped a shirt on

“is this you?” I ask him and he came and sat beside me looking at the photo

“Yeah, thats me” He blushed

“You where adorable” I giggle

“Thanks…I’m not adorable now?” He laughed and I just blush

“Who’s that?” I ask

“Ohh thats Ava…my sister, yeah she’s in alot of these younger ones” He laughed

“did she once throw up on a bouncer at a club?” i ask

“yeah, thats her” he laughed “You remember that?” He laughed

“Yeah” I giggle “Then who’s she?” i ask pointing to the other girl in the photo

“Thats you” He told me

“I dressed like that?” I ask

“Yep, Un ironically too” he laughed

“why?” I ask

“I dont know love, i didn’t know then and I still dont” he laughed before i went though a few more we sat for ages guessing people and places till I saw one that puzzled me it was me and him stood by a fountain

“I remember this” I tell him

“You do?” he asked “What happened then?” he asked me carefully

“I remember water….fountains… people…we… I dont remember” I tell him “what happened?” i ask

“It’ll be obvious in about…two pages” he smiled at me so I flipped about two or three pages a head it was a large photo, and it was very obvious what it was

“I married you?” I ask him

“Yeah, for some insane reason, you did” He laughed “It’ll come back honey, it’ll just take a little while, But I’m okay with that, I dont mind having to remind you how much I love you every day, it will all come back soon dont worry” he told me holding me tightly…