Next day from the last entry. I'm in history again. This time I'm not mad.
In art (sixth period) I started feeling as if I was shaking. I still feel like that.
I just overheard my history teacher say we are having a seat change soon. Damn it. I kinda liked my spot.
We have FSAs coming up. Bleh.
I will come back later this period. Bye.
[But then, to nobody's surprise, he didn't come back later that period :) ]
Over one day later: I didn't come back later that period. I've been meaning to finish this entry, but I didn't feel like doing anything.
I am at Tae Kwon Do right now (after class) and it is April 18.
Sorry about that.
Yesterday during art (my only class with Black) I let Black read my entries so far.
There is also this girl that makes sure I'm never lonely. Since there is already a Pink and already a Yellow, I will call her PY (Pink Yellow).
She also read my entries. I am happy to have her.
I learned that Back doesn't hate me. Black also told me that since Blue makes me feel the way I do, I need to stop talking to her.
And I know she is right. I need to forget her. She is affecting my mental health.
But it hurts. I kinda don't wanna forget her.
But at the same time, it's like she wants me to feel bad.
But it's not her fault.
Anyways, Pink wasn't here today. I'll text her later to see why.
Black just recently (like just last night) lost her closest friend. And I know how much that fucking sucks. But I don't know how to help. I'm still trying to help myself. But it's bad to feel selfish, so I will try. Even if she doesn't notice.
Sorry if my writing is messy. I'm in an uncomfortable position right now. My hand hurts.
I made this entry longer since I had ignored continuing it. Bleh. I don't really want to continue the Blue Story until next entry, but I have half the page left.
Today during 2nd and 4th period I made a design/pattern in blue pen on my right hand (I'm left handed). But I can't take a picture of it because one of the Tae Kwon Do Instructors made me vigorously wash it off.
I'm sorry that this is just filler material. I want to go to [discontinued]
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