//:WARNING:\
This story has depression in it so if you are sensitive to that then you might not want to read this! It also includes some violence!
You have been warned…
There is a girl who can’t seem to fit into her world. This is a girl who can’t seem to care for the ones close to her. This girl wants to disappear. She needs to disappear. At least that’s what she believes. She believes that she is a sociopath that doesn’t give a shit about anyone other than herself. She believes that nothing can change her and she can’t even change herself. She doesn’t want to be bothered, she doesn’t want her family to talk to her because she just sees them as a nuisance. But when she sees someone who has a great mother and father she gets jealous really easily. She wants what other people have so badly but those things happen to be the things that are impossible for her to gain.
When she was younger she used to be a crybaby who would cry over the dumbest things. She used to think her parents loved her so she kept trying to earn their affection more. But they didn’t care for her so she was badly deceived. As she grew older and realized her family wasn’t normal because her father would hit her and her mother would watch without doing anything. When she finally realized, she started to hate them. She started to be disgusted every time they would talk to her. She became cold and started to lose her emotions.
Then one day her father grabbed her and punched her straight across the face with blood dripping down. She looked straight up at her father. She had no expression, without crying, without emotions. She then realized pain wasn’t a big deal. She realized pain was something she could easily deal with. She stopped doing the things she enjoyed and just stayed in her room all day watching Anime or playing video games. When she would go to school she would stay in the restroom on her breaks and just stay in a stall and text her ‘friends’ on her phone.
Her ‘friends’ were people who she had met online because she felt that they were more real then the people she knew in real life. She fell into deep depression that she put upon herself by breaking her own mind apart. She convinced herself that no one cared about her. She convinced herself that all her real life friends were only talking to her because she made conversations less awkward by acting enthusiastic. She made suicide jokes and depression jokes in front of her friends to make them laugh. None of them actually thought they were real.
Her ‘jokes’ were not just jokes. The jokes she made were mostly true. She would say things that included being depressed or hating on self in a weird voice to make it more funny. People would just laugh. This girl has a big story with big lies and it all ends with her life. Which can never continue the way it used to.
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