I never thought the words I love you would sting like the prick of a needle, That the tension, the silence, the betrayal could break every resilient bone in my body. To think that someone loved me, that they were meant to be in my life, To have even the smallest hope that the darkness, the turmoil would just fade away...yeah...away.

It's was a joke in the making, a ruse,

I know what it feels like to be betrayed. To spend your entire day and night trusting, loving, cherishing, To do these things for someone who has their odds against them, Can you really blame an inexperienced youth for trying to see the light in someone? I was given signs, even my gut was telling me to stop before I START...but I couldn't have known what roller coaster I was getting on...

You WERE my love, my brains precious centerpiece,

I had a plan to give you my all, as a man to a man,

How could you seek to benefit just yourself in an act to benefit someone else, yet you do not seem to see the selfish desires you have.

I've been betrayed by clear tasteless poison.

You've caused me to fall, to awaken back to reality and to see the warzone plastered before me, the demon who gave me the knife, the pills, you only seek the power to control others through torture and pleasure, such an evil man, and yet you never saw the bucket over the door, just like I didn't see the black ice underneath me.

I've been betrayed, by you...but by my trust too.