"OK I'LL BE A BIG BABY EVEN MORE THEN" LIGHTSY SAID. That only works at the right time tho. We could go out to eat here. "YEA, WE CAN EAT & THEN DO SOME RLLY FUN STUFF." LIGHTS SAID. Then beau said Wat fun things shall we do maybe go skydiving lol. " I LOVE SKYDIVING. IT'S ONE OF THE NAMES OF MY SONGS. WE SHOULD ADD SOMETHING SPECIAL IN AFTER WE GO SWIMMING. U GET TO SURPRISE ME." LIGHTS SAID WHILE SHE WAS SCREAMING OF EXCITEMENT. LIGHTS WANTED TO DO SO MANY THINGS @ 1 TIME THT SHE JUST STARTED THROWING ANOTHER FIT BC SHE KNOWS SHE CAN'T DO ALL OF THEM @ ONCE. SHE WOULD HAVE 2 DO THEM @ DIFFERENT TIMES. SHE DIDN'T KNOW WHAT THING SHE WANTED 2 DO FIRST. SHE JUST WANTED 2 BE ABLE 2 DO ALL OF THEM. SHE WAS SUPER STRESSED OUT. SO INSTEAD OF TALKING, SHE JUST STARTED ACTING LIKE A BABY. Beau hugs lights tightly and gives her and really long kiss ...it feels like i have not talked 2 you for a whole day beau says as he kisses her again and again . LIGHTS AGREED WITH HIM & SAID " I MISSED U SO MUCH. I WISH THERE WAS A WAY 2 BE WITH U 24/7 BUT THERE'S NOT BC SOMETIMES I DO HAVE WK." THEN SHE STARTS KISSING HIM & TOUCHING HIM. Not cool lights it will be ok beau said ya know sometimes the fact that you have 2 wait 2 do things makes it 10 times better when you finally do it so waiting 2 do stuff is not always bad you build up excitement beau said. SHE WAS STILL STRESSED BUT NOW KNEW THT BEAU WOULD ALWAYS BE THERE FOR HER. SHE STARTED CRYING BC SHE DIDN'T KNOW WHAT 2 DO ANYMORE. SHE DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IF THERE WAS A WAY 2 CALM DOWN. SHE WAS JUST SO STRESSED THT SHE FELT LIKE IT WAS TAKING OVER HER. SHE DIDN'T KNOW IF BEAU KNEW HOW 2 HELP HER EITHER. SHE JUST WANTED SOME1 2 LOVE HER. Beau gets hard and touches her back and kisses on her neck ....you wanna give me all of you now he asks or should we just wait. " LIKE U SAID BABY SOME THINGS R BETTER WHEN U JUST WAIT 4 THEM. LET'S WAIT & U COULD GET THE REST OF ME." LIGHTS SAID. SHE WAS STILL KINDA CRYING BC NOW SHE JUST FELT STRESSED & HOPELESS. Y hopeless my love you are sure a great girl ?...i'm sorry that it seem the world doesn't see yu as i do beau said but it's y i try 2 love yu twice as much so yu don't feel this way ...wat happens if i'm taking away and then yu have 2 many ppl that want ur love yu don't know who 2 choose and u have such a big heart my love that yu will feel terrible that yu have 2 tell ppl no yu can't love them ...and don't say yu would love them all cuz its not possible. " U'RE RIGHT BABE. I GUESS I WILL BE OK. U LOVE WAY 2 MUCH FOR ME TO FEEL THIS WAY. U ALSO DO EVERYTHING U CAN FOR ME. I SHOULDN'T FEEL THIS WAY. U'RE THE BEST BF/BEAST ANY1 COULD HAVE. I'M GLAD I CHOSE 2 DATE U BC U'RE THE BEST @ EVERYTHING U DO 4 ME. U'RE ALWAYS THERE 4 ME & EVERYTHING I COULD POSSIBLY THINK OF. U DO ANYTHING 4 ME. I LOVE U SO MUCH." LIGHTS SAID. LIGHTS KISSED HIM & TOLD HIM THT " HE IS AMAZING". LIGHTS THOUGHT THT HE WAS A VERY NICE PERSON. HE WOULD DO ANYTHING 4 HIM. EVEN IF IT WAS 2 RISK HIM OR HIS LIFE. LIGHTS NVR WANTED 2 LOSE HIM. HE WAS THE BEST PERSON EVER. NO1'S LOVE WAS BETTER OR GREATER THAN HIS LOVE. EVERYONE ELSE'S LOVE WASN'T AS GREAT AS BEAU'S EMAIL. Beau smiled with love in his eyes ...my mother with thru a lot when I was a kid and it's always made me wanna love someone and make them happy the way I believe you feel now beau said ...it just makes me feel so good inside to see and make you happy its intoxicating lol beau laughed. "I WANT US 2 LAST 4EVER. I'M GLAD I HAVE A MAN LIKE U. I DON'T NEED ANY1 ELSE BUT U. U MAKE MY DAY BETTER EVERYDAY. I FEEL LIKE I CAN LIVE 4 ETERNITY WHEN I'M WITH U. I'M GLAD U FEEL THT WAY ABOUT ME BABE. WHT DO U WANNA DO NOW?" LIGHTS SAID CRYING WITH EXCITEMENT. Beau cried a little and started 2 sings to her....." you are the light that always keeps me smiling, you are my light when darkness surrounds me, this little light of mine she shines! she shines!!! Sooooo bright that I never could live without you in my life". " that's so cute. i love it babe." LIGHTS SAID. I love you 2 the moon and back beau said. "THT'S AMAZING BABE. I DIDN'T KNOW SOMEONE COULD LOVE ME SO MUCH." LIGHTS SAID. " IF U LOVE ME THT MUCH THEN THERE'S NO ROOM FOR LOVE 4 OTHERS. DON'T U LOVE UR PARENTS 2 BABE?" LIGHTS SAID. Lol yeah but it's not the same so they don't need me 2 show love like that and when they do need love I have you 2 help me so then they feel twice as much love and everything will be ok said beau. You never know how love will unfold until you give it a try and be patient with it .....now let's go skydiving ...so you can free fall in my arms ...its kinda symbolic cuz ur such an angel said beau. "OK IF U SAY SO. CAN WE DO THINGS NOW?" LIGHTS SAID. " U LOVE ME MORE THAN U LOVE UR PARENTS?" LIGHTS ASKED CONFUSINGLY. ALL LIGHTS WAS THINKING ABOUT WAS DOING THINGS & SLEEPING. SHE DIDN'T UNDERSTAND HALF THE THINGS THT WERE GOING ON RN.