I never wanted to start my last semester of highschool that way.

I left Naomi on her house after we went to the beach. We kissed, but she looked sad, liveless. I asked her if she was alright, but she pulled an smile that told me she was. 

Even though I knew deep down she was hurting, I didn´t do anything and blindly told myself she would be alright. I drove off to my house and after stealing a cup ramen from my brother I went to sleep. 

The buzz. 

That is one thing I remember clearly. 

It woke me up, and half asleep I answered without seeing who was calling. 

"Hello? Aiko? Are you sleep? I-I...I can´t believe this holy shit..." It was Tadashi´s voice. I was too groggy to take his shit at 4 am. 

"I swear to god, Tadashi if this is some kind of school joke..." I started trying to fall back asleep.

"NO. Aiko is just...Im trembling. Shun isn´t picking it up, but Aiko I´m at the hospital" he said with a broken voice. I pulled myself up, squinting my eyes.

"Why? What happened? Was the fish bad or something?" I said, feeling the hairs in my nape straightening up. Tadashi couldn´t talk, he was breathing strongly. I heard a doctor´s mumbling and him answering back "Tadashi?"

"Aiko! She´s ok! She´s alive!" he yelled happily. I was so confused. 

"Ok, but who?"

"Naomi" her name was the last thing I expected to hear "Aiko, don´t panic, but...Naomi..." that one word. That one last word was enough to make me wear a sweater and run to the keys of my bike. 

I put my helmet on and speed up. 

There was only one hospital near her home. 

I stopped in the front entrance and sprinted across the hall in my slippers while taking off the helmet. The receptionist found my heavy walking scary, as she moved back on her sit slightly when she saw me slamming my helmet on her desk. 

"Haneda. Haneda Naomi. Where is she?" I asked her in a scream. 

"Aiko?" Someone said on my back. It was Tadashi.

"Tadashi! Where is she?" 

"Aiko, calm down she´s alright" he tried.

"OF COURSE SHE ISN´T YOU IDIOT" I yelled unintentionally, him looking back at me in a frown "She... I´m sorry just tell me where she is".

He took my hand and conducted me to one stretcher in the urgency room. She was there with her eyes closed, breathing so slowly that I thought she wasn´t breathing at all. Her face was pale, except for the big hand print on her cheek; some left over puke was on her clothes. 

I had come screaming for her, but at that moment I could only take her hand without the IV tube and sit on a small chair by her. I could only watch. The only people who existed for me at that moment was her and I. Everyone else was just a buzz. 

I put my forehead on her hand and started crying. 

Soon doctors came with her family and told us to go to the hall for a moment. Her mother and I didn´t get along well. So I looked at her with all the anger I could manage to express. I could see her lip twitching as Tadashi took me to the hall himself. 

He handed me coffee in a carton cup and sat on the couch. We were awfully quiet, and I could only feel the buzz of my phone, telling me to answer the 28 call from my brother. I ignored it again as I sipped my coffee. 

"How could this happen? How did I not notice it earlier? why..." I started self loathing.

"Stop it Aiko. It´s nobody´s fault." Tadashi scolded me. I saw him cleaning his glasses. His eyes were red and teary. It was his cousin in the room after all. "I never expected her to do this either. I´m just as shocked." He sipped his coffee without his glasses on. "blergh" he put his tongue out making me smile a bit "This needs more sugar" he went as he got up and grabbed two sugar packets. 

"How did you find her?" I asked him looking at my cup. 

He started fidgetting with his fingers. "My aunt heard her puking" he said looking at his own cup of coffee. "Aiko...you were always with her... didn´t you notice something strange?" he asked me looking up "I mean! I noticed she looked very tired and her clothes change at school..." I blinked at him. I was on third year and her on the first. So I never saw her at school besides lunch, school events and hallway ocassional meetings. 

"Do you think people started associating her with us?" his tone made me understand perfectly. When we were on middle school, both of us were bullied. We were ´the queers´. Even after changing schools, the bullying persisted. It was only after we discovered queer sites and social media, that we stood for ourselves. 

"People are shit" I told him folding my nose.

I knew Tadashi´s parents were supportive. My brother was the same. He was a bit shocked, but then he said "Well, now we can talk about girls together!". 

Naomi´s parents, however, were very traditional and close minded. I don´t think they didn´t know about us, the lip twitching from before was enough. 

We saw the doctor and her mother coming out. She was calm. We stood up and walked to them. 

"How is she?" I asked the man in a white coat. 

"She swallowed a lot of pills, but fortunately Miss Haneda brought her here as fast as she could" He explained. "She will be alright, but she will be here for observation for at least a week. Then we will need to make a psychological evaluation" He opened his mouth trying to keep talking, but Naomi´s mother decided it was her turn. 

"It was you. You fooled my daughter with your stupid homo shit. I can´t believe you´re my family. Didn´t you think of your mother?" She was talking to Tadashi who stood there in a fiery look. Only with her he stayed quiet. "You better take responsability on what you did. On the reason of her classmates mistaking her for a dyke. My Naomi. Mistaken for...this" she signaled me with her hand. "You should have never come out to her. She would have never turned wrong if you hadn´t" she said to him, who started to tremble as tears came out. "Now YOU´re crying?! Be a man!" he yelled at him the doctor putting himslef between them. 

"Miss Haneda! This is a hospital!" the man yelled. 

"Miss Haneda" my mouth blasted in a grave voice that made the three look at me "Your daughter, Naomi, isn´t a fricking vampire. People don´t turn into being gay. If you have a single problem with her sexuality to call it wrong, then maybe, you weren´t prepared to be the mother of the most beautiful, smart, innocent girl I have ever met" I took a step on her maddening face "The one I call my girlfriend, is there with her guts twisted" I started crying but I couldn´t be bothered by it "because, YOU, the person she looks up to, wouldn´t accept her" I would love to say I was trembling but at that moment I only could notice how her face turned purple from the anger. 

Everything stayed quiet for a while, before the woman looked at me the way you look at a disgusting bug. "Who do you think you are? Talking to me in such a condescending way? You knew she was depressed and you still did nothing. If my girl is dating you, then I don´t have a daughter" she said so naturally.

 In that moment I completely lost it. I jumped at her and started hitting her as strongly as I could on that homophobic face of her. I knew that after that, I wouldn´t be able to visit her, but I couldn´t just let her say that like it was a walk in the park. I felt how Tadashi and the doctor tried to stop me, but I would find the way to hit her. I wouldn´t be satisfied until she bled. Soon enough the hospital guards restrained me and dragged me out of the building. My arms were full of scratches and some were on my face too. After half an hour, I saw Tadashi coming out of the building. He grabbed me by the shoulders and shook me. 

"WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?!" he yelled at me "WHY CAN´T YOU THINK FOR A SECOND ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE?!" he shooked me one more time, before he started crying again and hugged me "You´re a fucking idiot" I hugged him back crying too. 

"I couldn´t let her say that about her" I hiccuped. "I cant!" I screamed "I know it was stupid, but..."

"I know. I know. Hitting people is not the way to solve problems, Aiko. Don´t do it again" he told me pulling me tighter. "You don´t need to worry about her. You just, erm, can´t enter the hospital now" he sighed. Figured enough myself. "Aiko, I know it must be really hard for you right now, but please answer that phone and tell your brother you´re ok. Also..." he looked at the sun rising on the sky. "Could you...go to school and tell Shun to call me?" I nodded as he smiled "thanks. My parents are talking with my aunt right now. Maybe it´s time to get her out of there" he told me making me smile. 

"You´re literally the best person ever" I hugged him.

"Don´t thank me yet" he smiled "Please, tell Shun to call me, ok? I´m counting on you" his voice was nervous, anxious. 

"I will, don´t worry ok? Take care" I said as I walked to my bike. As I called my brother, Tadashi brought me my helmet. My brother was mad at me for going away at 4 am without telling him. But when I got back I explained to him what happened.

He was shocked. He liked Naomi.

"Wow" he took a sip of his cigarrate. 

"I never expected it" became a phrase I would hear a lot in the next days.

He patched me up and after getting dressed we walked together to school. 

In the way, my brother bought me a sandwich and tea. We were about to get there when he suddenly stopped me and looked at me straight to the eyes.

"If you ever feel sad, or angry or whatever... Like in middle school... Never think I won´t listen ok? I´m here, Aiko" seeing him talking so sympathetically didn´t suit his dangerous appearence. But my brother was just a big bear brother. 

I nodded "ok" before entering. 

It would be some really tough weeks.