Day 36

Dear Diary,

I finally found a town after a day/2 days travelling. This one appears to be in better shape than the other one. Who knows, maybe I'll find someone alive here. I doubt it though, if anyone else survived, they are probably doing the same thing as me and going through towns and other settlements and raiding them.

Remember Violet? She used to be such a happy person. It's a shame what happened to her. I guess war is just a big stressor to some people. She lost a lot of people. I didn't suffer many major losses. She was my only actual loss.

I was never a very social creature. I didn't have many friends, just a lot of acquaintances. I'm not very social now either, but it's not by choice this time. 

I think I loved Violet. I say I think because I'm not sure. She's the only thing that evokes any emotion in me these days, everything else is just white noise. I wish she didn't go the way she went. My real wish is that she were still here, but I know that's just a dumb dream. I just wish she didn't choose that route.

Sometimes when I'm half asleep I can see her looking at me with her stunning eyes and beautiful smile. When my mind then clears and realises the situation, it just pisses me off. 

That's enough for now. I'll talk to you in a few days once I've raided the whole town. Have a nice day.