Here's another reason why I never liked school: everyone's just so…faceless.
Like, you know how they say you could define a person with what they value? Say, if Person A puts value on his friends, then you could say he's loyal. Then, if Person B put more value in his studies, then you'd say he's studious. Adjectives tailor fit to the person.
What I see in my fellow students is just…nothing. No adjectives to describe them, no anything to refer to them as. They're all just effigies of people, having nothing yet everything.
So why are they so happy and fulfilled with all this, of being empty and drained and fulfilled and contradictions at the same time? What fuels them when they have nothing to build on?
As I said probably about a thousand times, I've had way too many questions.
They just put values in the wrong things.
Friends just wither and go. Sometimes they rat on you. That happened once. To me.
That's probably why I've never had that many friends before. Heck, even now.
Grades? They're just a convenient way of labeling you as something that should've been important, but isn't. I just indulge in it so I can pass.
Games…don't even get me started on those things. I'm a busy guy, always hammering out project after project after project to go do things. Just for the heck of it.
And yes, I call those daily trips to the record store projects. I'm what you call a music connoisseur, rooting through the dirt and filth that is general music to pick the best gems. I'm pretty much an honorary employee there; at least that's what Ms. Elvon (that's the name of Chill Owner, according to your reply letters) says.
Games are all distractions, you know? They mess your head, warp your time, all for you to invest in a story that's over before you know it. And it's a story that's not even important. After all, what you're going to learn from there; you could learn from life.
I just don't know. It feels like everything has next to no meaning anymore. What was once full is now empty.
Ha. My poetic side's showing. That's probably a good sign, right?