FUCK FUCK FUCK is all I can think about. That fucking word goes through my mind as I stand frozen. Staring at Leo's mother who, herself, was confused. I can't imagine what she's thinking. She can't tell anyone. Fucking can't. I don't even want to turn and look at Dylan. I can't believe he did what he did. I can't believe any of this happening. One question is who the fuck is she with. Leo will have one hell of a time meeting this guy. But that doesn't matter right now. What matters is how the hell do I get out of this.
"Mrs. Leston...er..Ms. Anderson...er Leo's mom. You didn't see anything ok? I tried to walk away, but Dylan was in my way.
"Didn't see anything. Henry Wilhelm, I'm pretty sure you were kissing that boy."
"No...one can know about this. Neither my parents or Leo. Please Ms. Anderson. Please."
The man tried to pull Leo's mom away. I'm for sure he did not want to be here either just like me. He didn't seem to care what was going on. With a few attempts of persuading her to leave with him. Ms. Anderson told him to wait in the car. Dylan still hasn't said anything. I don't think he wants to after what just happened.
"Henry, it's fine. If you're...different. I'm sure your mother and father will be okay with this."
"But Ms. Anderson. I'm not gay. I swear. Dylan..." I turn my head towards Dylan. He looked like he wanted to die that's for sure. His eyes were moving fast. Looking at everything to see what exactly was going on. He was scared. "It's hard to explain, but just...that wasn't supposed to happen. He just..." She cut me off before I can say anything else.
"Henry, don't lie to yourself and certainly don't try to lie to me. I've known you since you were a child. To be honest, I wouldn't be surprised if you and Leo were the ones together. That boy sure is...confusing."
Okay. What the actual fuck is going on. What do I do? What do I say? I'm fucking freaking out. That's when I remember about Janet and Alice. I completely forgot that they were still in the restaurant. Probably waiting for Dylan and I to return.
"Don't you have somewhere to be Ms. Anderson. I'm sure your date is waiting for you in the car."
"Oh please, Henry. After Daniel and my divorce, I am not getting back into the whole dating thing. Michael is just a co-worker Henry."
"Oh please," I mocked her which I felt bad about, "Anyone who says it's just a 'co-worker' is definitely dating their co-worker. When I said that, that's when I knew she was lying. She looked back at the man in the car when I told her that.
"Alright fine, we are on a date. You can't tell Leo this though. He can't know."
"Then don't tell Leo OR my parents about what you saw."
"Deal Henry. I'll..uh...see you around?" Ms. Anderson stumbled off in her high heels to the cry. Dylan and I still haven't moved from our positions. We waited until Ms. Anderson left. She backed out of the parking lot and drove off, waving a good-bye to me. I waved back with an awkward smile on my face. Once she leaves I take a big exhale and stare at Dylan.
"I am so so so sorry." Dylan pleaded.
"Sorry!? You're sorry!? What the hell was that about? I...you...why???"
"I seriously don't know why I did it. You were...talking. I just. Gaaaah."
Fuck this right now. I can't deal with this right now. I pushed passed him and went right back into the Denny's. I headed straight for our booth to see that Janet and Alice were laughing together. I guess, they're automatically best friends again. They don't even notice me walk into the booth. I don't what I looked like in that moment, but from what Janet told me. I'm a mess.
"Where's...uhm..Dylan at?"Alice asked. Out of all the people here. Alice asked that.
"If I told you what happened five minutes ago. I don't know how you two will feel about it. I still don't know how I feel about it."
"Then..what the fuck happened?" Janet budged in with her mouth full of food. My food.
"It doesn't fucking matter anymore." That's when Dylan walked in. He tried to walk towards us, but before he could. I tossed Alice the twenty dollars my gave me. I told her to use it to help pay for the dinner. I quickly said thanks and left. Leaving Janet and Alice confused. And also Dylan very upset.
I pushed through the front door and walked off in a hurry. My house is only twenty minutes from here, so I don't mind walking. Or running. I found myself running back home. I have no idea why. So many thoughts. Am I making this a big deal? Am I the asshole? Should Dylan have even done that? I'm being dramatic. Maybe? Probably? God, I hope Leo's mom doesn't tell anyone. NO. She won't. She made a deal not to.
I'm not even half home already and I'm completely out of breath. I'm under a highway, bridge thing. Whatever the fuck it's called. I slide the wall and all I do is just stare in front of me. Watching all the cars past by. The people walk past by me, confused on why I'm sitting here like those homeless people you see. Five minutes later of doing nothing. A car pulls up front.
"So, peanut. You're just gonna take off and tell us it's nothing when Dylan Dickhead back here, told us everything." Alice was hanging out the car window with a large smile on her face.
"Can...you not call me that Alice."
"Oh..my bad. Dylan Douche wants to talk and so do we. Get in the car. We got candy." She winked at me. She fucking winked at me. I got myself to get up and get into Janet's car.
For a few seconds it was quiet. We weren't going anywhere. Janet told me that she won't stop driving until everything is settled between the four of us. Starting with the problem with Alice. She forgave Janet, but still felt hurt from Dylan and I. We did end up just telling her that we will do anything for her.
"Anything?" She said. That...was oddly vague. I'm scared now. I fear her now.
That's when everything turn towards me. Soley me for some fucking reason. Apparently Dylan told Janet and Alice everything. He seriously can't keep his mouth shut. Note to self: Don't tell Dylan any secrets. Alice told me to shrug it off. That we were in a moment at the time. Janet of course, thought it was cute and literally attempted to push me towards Dylan. To be honest, I can't be mad at the two. This would be something they would do. They're taking this better than I am. However, they weren't the ones kissed when you tell your gay friend, you're not into that kind of stuff.
"Don't be such a homophobe." Alice yapped about.
"I'm not being a homophobe. You just don't kiss friends. You don't!" I gave Dylan an angry eye towards him. He quickly turned towards the window. Still not saying anything.
"Look Henry, Dylan said he was sorry, just fucking accept the apology and then you should apologize for overreacting." Janet suggested I should, but I do want to. But something else doesn't want me to.
"Or you two can just make-out again." Alice joked about. Dylan went red and the two girls laughed. I wasn't taking any of this as a joke.
"Shut up Alice. You're just jealous that this guy isn't into girls at all and he's into me." I yelled.
"You did not just go there. Who cares. You said it yourself. You obviously like that he's into you."
I didn't say anything. She came back with a good comeback. I lost that argument. I sighed and looked out my side of the window. Alice inserted a disc and a song came on. It was a song by 16B8. The band we all love in this fucking car. I knew she put it on purpose. Janet and Alice began to sing along to the band and it did look fun. I turn towards Dylan who was tapping on the car door. He sees me and smiles. I do the same. Asshole I think to myself. Dylan is a cool guy though. I shouldn't let this change anything. I reach forward and turn off the music.
"Look, Dylan. I'm sorry for the way I acted to all of this. I just hate that Leo's mom saw us. What I'm saying is that. I'm not saying that I did enjoy nor I did not enjoy the kiss." Not gonna lie, that was my first kiss. It wasn't bad. "I'm not also gonna say that just because you kissed me. I'm not all of a sudden, magically, gay. I still like girls." That's when Alice eyed me in the side-view mirror. Dylan didn't say anything. He just smiled and punched my shoulder.
"See, was that hard? Two guys can't have some bro-mance not let it be gay?" Alice said.
I kicked her seat and Dylan laughed. I leaned forward again to turn on the radio. I told Janet not to take us home. For the rest of the ride, we car-pooled karaoke around town. I won't forget this night.
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