July 10, 2014

3:46 pm

The sun shines into my room. I didn't want to wake up but I had to. Today was the day I got to marry the love of my life. I got out of bed and got ready for today. After showing and eating I left to go to the dress fitting and makeup team at the church. Driving down the street the light was green. Then it happens in a flash. The car was hit on the passenger side by a semi truck and then the car was thrown into a pole and wrap around it. I felt my body growing cold and everything was happening in slow motion. I heard sounds and yelling but everything was going black.

I woke to nothing but darkness. "Where am I" I question. I got up and wander around this place. I didn't see anything for miles all over expect this darkness. It felt cold and alone but at the same time welcoming and warm. But I knew I wasn't supposed to be here. Not yet at least. I was going to get married to the love of my life and grow old with her. I wanted to yell and fight but I couldn't. Nothing came out and my body felt weak. Tear began to fall and it felt cold. I felt cold. I just wanted to get out of here and be with my love.

Then all of a sudden a wall appear before me. "What's this" I question. Then it came to life. My memories started to run on the wall. It was like I was watching a movie. My life. I see it all. From my family to the person who I would soon marry and everything in between. Then it all ended with the truck hitting me. Why was this happening? Why was this being shown to me? I couldn't understand any of this. Then I felt a searing white hot pain shot through me. I couldn't breathe.

I couldn't understand anything in this darkness. I just wanted out. But what would that mean? Would it mean death or life?

The answer to your question is what you want it to be.

What the hell? Who are you?

Just a voice.

Was all it said. So the answer to my question is what I want it to be. then I chose life

Five weeks later

I moan out in pain. "Where am I," I said aloud. "Oh my god Jim she's awake" cried, someone. Who said that I thought to myself. It was still dark but slowly the light started to shine. My eyes were opening slowly and with each blink, I take my vision became clearer and clearer. After a while, I saw my mother with tears in her eyes. I wonder why she was crying. I try to move and take her hand but pain shot through my arm and I cried out. "Jim she's awake" my mother cried again. My father held her in his arms. I wonder where Julie was. "Where's Julie" I whisper. My father looks at me with sad eyes. "She died in a car crash" was all he said. I cried out loud. She was gone.

Choosing life meant another had to die and take your place. I hope you live well.

I looked around for that voice and saw nothing. I wish I didn't pick life so she could live.

- Samantha