[Martin]

My whole body aches.

Even if these past weeks have been hell, these last minutes hurt more than I could have possibly believed to be possible. My heart beats so fast yet I can’t bring myself to go after Jacques. I’m stuck there as the flow of students getting out of their last classes get through me, pushing me as I’m right in the middle of the way. But my mind has shutted down from the physical pain and all I can feel is my heart, stomping and breaking through me, destroying my chest with his every strength. I try to picture our friendship one last time and I realise that I’ll never get that with anyone else.

Our friendship was… special. I always knew it was more than usual friends, that we were way too attached to each other for someone not to question our relationship. It just felt so right and this is all going too fast for me. The first one I want to talk to is now lost, and I may never again regain what we had.

How could I have know that this precious thing was so fragile?