[Jacques]

You’re gonna say that I brought this on myself, and I kinda have to agree with you. I let him go right when things were finally starting to get better. Except it wasn’t really okay. I can’t hang out with someone who cares more about his reputation than being with me. I can’t just get my hopes up in order to finally lose him again. I just… I just can’t.

Walking down the hallway, watching these stupid kids head home with friends, I can’t help wondering how my life would be with him by my side. I get it, I’d have to resist the pulse to kiss him every seconds, but in all honesty, that’s quite always been my life.

Obviously, everything went back to “normal”, except for the part where Martin harasses me. We just… ignore each other. The few times our eyes meet, we hastily turn our face away, blushing to death. There’s this unease that keeps creeping on us, and no one dares trying to break it. Honestly I think I liked having him bothering me. At least, it meant having him in the picture.

Thus begins my lonely college days. No friends, no more reading club as Martin polluted the whole space. Not a single friend as I still am the loser… I thought college was free of that stupid rank.

However, I can’t say he didn’t try. I now realise that I also may have been a bit harsh on him. Anyways, I’ve got nothing to lose now, right?