Standing in front of the mirror what do I see,
I see a shell of a girl that used to be me,
I see a fake smile placed there to fool the common eye
while in reality I just wish I could die,
go fast and without pain,
tears falling down my cheeks like soft rain
knowing I’m being selfish and thinking of only me
but in the mirror that’s not who I see.
I see the scars painted with pain
and how once upon a time they were keeping me sane
hearing the voices echo in my mind
saying I can never move on, never leave my sorrows behind
chained to my past and how I was bent
at the time not knowing what my words have meant
spreading pain for anyone close to my heart
and in the end I was only thrown apart
I put them above myself you see
that they’d be safe from the monster inside of me
the darkness I feel day and night
because of people who told I had no right
people who kept me like a toy they could use
knowing I won’t speak out against their abuse
they made me feel empty and yet I here I stand
in front of the mirror holding my own hand
because I’m so used to getting treated like the ground
that I’d keep quiet and not make a sound
keep my pain inside is what I believed was right
keeping my pain from everyone’s sight
because being hurt is seen as a being weak
so my voice was stolen I can’t even speak,
speak of my pains, my sorrows I hide
letting them grow and rot me inside
going through my day more hurt than I was before
dealing my with my own shit and being given more
from the words that are spoken to break me down
to the laughter I get like I was some circus clown
but I keep my words in my mind
and only respond with something kind
even though they hurt me and I want to cry
but all I can do is stand there and try
try to not show that they get to me
because they don’t know what I see
their words shake me to my very core
but I know that I can do so much more
I know that I can be my own worst nightmare
and the things I can say about myself would give them a scare
for how can it be that someone so kind
can be the one breaking their own mind…
standing in front of the mirror what do I see…
I see a girl crying only wishing to be free…
~Angi
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