Do you know why I drown in thoughts every night ?

because I haven’t met anyone strong enough to help me against this fight

this on going war inside my head

as I lay in the dark on my comfy bed

the thoughts of death, the thoughts of pain

it’s putting so much strain… on my young brain

I’m only seven teen

my mind shouldn’t be so broken, so unclean

I carry the world on my shoulders

climbing small rocks that feel like boulders

crossing a small puddle that feels like a river

but like a goodnight’s shot to a healthy liver

I have my limit, and is about to snap

making it seem like an ever bigger gap

a gap between me and sanity

slowly feeling myself losing my humanity

I wish I could explain

how it feels like to be trapped in your own brain

by brain I mean mind

the same mind that’s making me blind

I used to see people for who they are

now I only see them as a new scar

a new scar that get’s added like a sticker

until I come of age and let the pain drown in liquor

I know you shouldn’t drown yourself in pain

but man I’ll down it like the first spring rain

maybe after the storm I’ll bloom a new

and finally find myself as true

someone I’d like to see

a newer form of me

~Angi