So

School

There was this interesting activity I had to do where we had to write down some positive aspects of someone we admire (I know it’s childish just go with it)

This was literally one of the only times I had i mental breakdown it school. Because every time I think of it, I don’t really have someone I admire to.

And it seems like it’s a normal thing, like every human has someone they admire to.

And it was at this point where everything went spiraling down in a fun slide of philosophy.

From this I started asking questions like. Why am I like this? Why is my personality so kind and loving? Like I’m the only one who has this type of personality. Everyone else is more harsher. So how did I get it?

Every time I think of someone it’s not them because they never showed or taught me anything like this. So I just assumed that this was because I get good aspects of people and use that to be me.

If that was the case, why did I choose these qualities? Why not the more aggressive harsher personalities everyone’s got? Then I thought maybe because I found them right.

Then why do I find this qualities right? Why do I think so kindly about people And think this is the right why to do it. It’s been shown countless times that people can think bad stuff are the right way, so why do I see this as the right way?

And it goes spiraling.....

Down

Down

Even deeper

And that was basically a mental breakdown that I had.

Trying to decipher why I find things right and wrong, why my personality is like this.

This topic releases a whole lot of questions.