Alex

As I watched my beautiful Kathy head out the door I couldn’t help but feel a sense of unease and dread that would not go away. A part of me felt like I would never see her again, but I knew that this was a chance she had to take, and that I had no right to keep her from her dreams. I had never felt pain like this, never experienced such heaviness in my heart. It was something that wouldn’t go away and made it hard not to cry, which is ridiculous since guys don’t cry.

I don’t think I slept at all for the last two days before Kathy moved away, tossing and turning all night, what little sleep I had was interrupted by nightmares of Kathy leaving and never coming back.

On her last day, I went to the airport with Kathy so that we could say our goodbye. I held onto her tightly and whispered, “Don’t worry about a thing, everything’s going to be okay. Make sure you call me tonight once you get settled.”

I gave her a kiss and let her go, not knowing when I would be able to see her again.

I stayed at the airport until long after her and her plane were out of sight before I was able to turn around to look at my parents. They smiled sympathetically at me as I walked passed them to the car.

As we drove home I stared out the window as the landscape seemed to pass me by. I couldn’t see any of it. My girlfriend was gone. We had been together for over a year and now she was suddenly just gone from my life and I had no idea when I would be able to get her back. The fact that I felt like I needed to get her back showed how bleak I felt everything become. Everything suddenly became completely meaningless.