After a long night with March, I learned that she can be such a girl. She forced me into telling what happened there. Like we've been friends since forever. I really don't get her. Last night had been the most confusing and refreshing at the same time. I don't know if it's in a good or bad way.
Anyway, being me, I didn't tell her everything. I may be her roommate and the closest one to me that I can call a friend but I am not that comfortable to ask for guidance when it comes to my personal thoughts.
I may be called cold or stone but there's a reason why I became like this. Also, it is not my responsibility to tell and explain to them what happen. I am my own person. I still believe that I am the only one who can help myself. The idea of seeking help from others already failed me once. And I am smart enough to be foolish for only once in this lifetime.
My thoughts we're interrupted when a pair of hands surrounded my waist. I prepared myself to punch this person when I heard a familiar voice.
"Adrien!" A voice exclaimed beside my ears that no doubt destroyed my ear drum. I willed myself to turn and forced a smile. A fake smile which I can only recognize. Even my best friend cannot tell which is fake or sincere.
"I missed you! How come you left in the middle of the school year?! We were so worried about you!" She pulled away from hugging me to see my face properly. I can see that she is in the verge of crying but my mouth still chose to not speak. I stood frozen in front of her hoping that she is just a dream. A bad dream.
"What are you doing here?" After a minute or so I realized that she is real and forced myself to speak. I do not even know where I got the courage to open my mouth.
She looked at me like I lost my mind and stated the words that I cannot imagine on hearing. I'm afraid that her words ruined my day or even my whole life here.
"Well, rejoice my dear! For you will see your best friend everyday again after suddenly disappearing a year ago." Her smile send shivers at my back. I remained calm thanks for the past months I stayed here. But deep inside I am in panic! I did not foresee that one of my friends back home may encounter me. I slowly curled my lips and hoped that I showed the smile that I always wore when I am with her.
"That's great! I cannot wait to show you around!" I pretended to be overjoyed by my discovery when deep inside I am shaking. I hope that this will be the worst that may happen to me today or I won't even survive this day.
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I realized that I opened the door with much more force than I intended to when all of my club mates turn their heads towards me after I enter the room. I muffled the groan that wants to came out and take a sit at the farthest corner of the room. I hate being the center of attention and most of all, I hate being stared at.
But it seems that you didn't mind that he stared at you last night.
Ugh. Why should I remember that guy now? This is the worst day ever.
While contemplating to myself I did not even noticed that a couple of guys entered which says a lot since I am very sensitive when it comes to my surroundings. It just means that I am really troubled to be that distracted. I just continue arguing with myself until Zack, our club president, tapped my shoulder. And since my back is turned towards the rest of the room while I faced the window, I have to turn on my seat to see what is going on. But what awaits me is not what I expected at all.
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