It was true, no one in my life as ever asked me about art or anything closely relating to art. It was more like '"Wow, I like what colors you used!" And "How long did it take you to paint that?" Or "You know that anyone can paint that?".' Nothing at all about who inspired me or who painted what, but then Keegan went and asked which a complete waste of my time wasn't and what most would say was pretty nice.

But people close to me where always the most hurt by my work; Derek thought it was idiotic career because, with no pay. Nathan thought it was stupid because it took up his time when it should have been spent with him, and Nina was annoyed with the fact that I made such a mess and didn't like how I'd rather paint then party with her. Damn, no wonder they slept together they piratical are each other's twins.

I was no longer in the mood to paint, and part of me just wanted to curl into bed but it panned on me that it wasn't a bed but a couch. But it was too early in the day, and I had nothing to do so I decide to call Jacob which was meeting downstairs in the lobby. Keegan fast asleep, I don't understand how hooking up with some escort was going to make him feel better about his arm or career but it sure was making him tired or maybe he should just pick out a new life style?

I glance out the window, stormed clouds approached us either telling me I was in for a thunder shower or a snow storm, knowing that no matter what I had to bundle up so I decide on putting my winter coat and pink scarf around my neck, my black boots warm against my feet and rushing out since I didn't want to keep Jacob waiting any longer.

He was probably already at the lobby but when worse come to worse you always end up running into someone when you are in a hurry, and that someone was Nina.

I was taken back by her appearance her eyes were puffy, and circles formed under her eyes. Her hair braided into a mess, her lips pressed firmed together, Nina didn't look like Nina. She was usually dressed to the nine's, she never had worried lines, and was well primed and proper but what I saw in front of me was sweat pants stained and an over sized hoodie framing her face.

My body almost thrown against hers, forcing her to nearly fall all over causing her notebook to burst everywhere. "I'm sorry." I mutter before bending down to pick up her loose papers, placing my hair neatly behind my ears.

"It's fine." She mumbles, gathering the papers in her lap and look down and I come across a picture on the floor of Nina, Nathan, and I. Nathans arm wrapped around my waste with a beer in hand, and Nina hugging my torso smiling her effortless smile.

"Nathan, I have to go..." I argue with Nathan, attempting to remove myself of his from his lap.

"Babe, come on. The party is just getting started." He cradles his face into the kink of my shoulders. "You can't leave your own house party."

"It's as much as Nina's as it is my party, Nathan." I turn to him placing a kiss swiftly to his forehead. "I really have to go boo." I get up as Nathan tags along holding my hand, wishing I enjoy having him around.

I needed to find Nina in the crowd, bodies pressed against each other and Nina was at the end of it all pouring herself a drink and being surrounded by every guy at the party. She was in her purest moment, boys, drinks, socializing, and be admired by all and I was here to watch it all and be annoyed.

"Josephine," Her voice rings, making it seemed shocking that I was here. "I've been looking everywhere for you!" Lie, I saw her five minutes ago. She runs over to hug me, her drink spilling in the process.

Releasing my hand from Nathan's grasps and open my arms to hugging her, "Listen, Nina I need too-"

"Picture time!" She screams in my ear, I look behind me to see Nathan beaming with excitement.

He shrugs, knowing that I couldn't leave Nina in this state and I was going to have to stay and I didn't mind it because I was surrounded by the people I love.

I ended up staying the rest of the night, and enjoyed having fun with my friends but now looking back I really wasn't around the people I loved. Nina rips the picture out from my hand tucking it into her pocket; tears begin streaming down her face.

"Excuse me." She says rushing back to our apartment, well her apartment now and slamming the door.

This broke my heart that picture brought so many good memories, but now those memories feel more like sad moments of a simpler times and I know I'm not the only one broken. I turn to the elevator, starring on ward to the hallway a friend's ship ruined and I feel broken. Don't get me wrong, I know what she did but it still feels worse to lose a best friend then a lover.

Jacob is waiting patiently glaring at one of my paintings in the lobby, two coffee cups in his hand and bundled up from top to bottom His hair was neatly tucked into a grey beanie. I cough out loud, stirring his direction from the painting to me.

"Oh," He say's handing me one of the coffee cups, "Black right?" He asks, as I take the coffee from his hands small hands.

"Correct, surprised you still remembered." I comment before taking a sip of my coffee, Jacob smiles before returning back to the painting.

"You're a hard one not to forget Josephine Kendall," He moves away from the painting and glances at me. "We should probably get going; I have some Christmas shopping I need to do!"

"Sounds great!" I shuffle beside him as we leave the lobby, the cold winter breeze hitting our already now frost bitten faces.

Jacob giggles, his mittens touching his face. "You would think that we would relocate to a school with warmer conditions than this." He raises his hands in the air snowflakes falling all around us, he was really enjoying it!

It's our first snow of the season and normally I would feel fantastic but all I really want to do is cosplay as a Christmas ornament so I can go hang myself December was already feeling like a nightmare ready to end.

"Yeah." Was all I felt liking saying and honestly I just tagged along with Jacob because I needed something to do or I would just end up like Keegan and go to escorts for money. I wasn't willing to go that low on the loser spectrum or maybe I was.

Jacob stopped being joyless and peers over his shoulder. "What's up?" His face formed to a concern look.

"Nothing." I say shaking my head getting rid of what my thoughts were consumed into.

He hooks his arm into mine, "That's not a nothing stare," He pauses looking directly into my eyes, "Is it hot boy Keegan Murray clouding up those thought up there?" He points to my head.

Making me giggle, "Ha, I'd be better to think about poop then Keegan Murray." I roll my eyes in the thought of thinking about Keegan in that way. "I was just thinking about how crazy these past couple weeks have been."

He glares at me again, "You live with one of the hottest boys in school and you're telling me you don't think about him at all?" He nudges me a bit.

A smile creeps on my face, there was the first night I spent with Keegan and when I drank with him, but I was drunk so it really didn't count. "No it's just the whole Nina situation," I take a sip of my coffee, "Do I talk it out with her?"

He looks at me shocked, "No way in hell do you go crawling back! You didn't do that with Nathan, don't do with her."

"Also, lies about Keegan!" He yells, as other people turn to look at us in shock.

"I didn't even say anything Jacob." I tug on his coat to get him to lower his voice, people continuing to walk ignoring Jacobs's outburst.

"Yeah but that smile did!" He beams releasing me from his grip and holding the door to the mall open. "Come on let's get both our men something."

He beams releasing me from his grip and holding the door to the mall open. "Come on let's get both our men something."

Maybe Jacob was right? I mean Keegan was attractive, yeah but he's my roommate and can be an ass he has gotten better since when I first met him. The accident probably made him think about how much of a prick he was and think about how he treated regular people which was what he was now.

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