I went to my room and dropped on my bed, but when I look at the time it was almost five. I could hear my mom downstairs moving around the kitchen. There is no point of going back to sleep I need to wake up Jer in an hour anyway. It's better if I just take a shower and do some homework.

I was enjoying the hot water when image's of Azai hot body clouded my vision. I think my exhausted brain is playing tricks on me, because I never thought about him in that way before. I could feel my crotch getting excited. It's not enough that I'm tired but now I'm horny as well. At least I can take care of that one. I grabbed my shaft and start playing. I rubbed myself thinking of how Azai hands would feel around my privates. I fasten the speed thinking about his hot breath on my neck. He nibbling my ear, his muscular body pressed on my back. My hands running down his eight pack. His big ... Arghhhh I made a mess all over the shower door. And then shame hit me like a storm. What am I doing? I shouldn't be doing that while thinking about Azai. I'm turning 18 tomorrow and I should be looking for a mate, but Azai probably found his last night. How rotten of a person am I? Pleasuring myself while thinking about someone elses mate. The tears start falling down my cheeks. I wish dad was alive. He would take me camping the day before my birthday. We would go hunting or fishing. I need to get a grip of myself. I have responsibilities, Jer, mom , the bakery and school. I can't waste time crying and drown in self-pity. I wiped my tears away and stepped out the shower. I put on some clothes and went to find mom. She was sitting on the sofa. I just went to her and put my head on her lap.

" I miss him too pup." She said to me while playing with my hair.

And the tears start running down again. We stayed like that for about twenty minutes. In silence.

" So how was the party? Do we know who the future Luna is?" I finally asked mom

" It was busy, and no."

" What do you mean no?"

" Azai didn't find his mate last night, his girlfriend was pissed that's for sure. That girl thinks just because she is sucking off our future Alpha the world revolves around her."

" Mom language!" I laughed at her comment.

" What?! It's true."

" I love you mom. I feel better now I'm going to make breakfast for Jeremy, you want some?"

" Depends on what are you making."

" Animal shaped pancakes of course."

" Count me in. I will go prep your brother then."

" Thanks mom."

We had breakfast all three of us. Jer loved his t-rex pancakes. He was stuffing his mouth like he will never eat again. He was a little chatter box all morning telling mom how I will never leave him, and that after tomorrow I will bring my mate to live with us.

" Okay Jer wash your hands and let's go."

" 'Kay BB."

" Mom what shall I do after school?"

" The usual hun, pick up your brother and come to work. "

" Okay mom see you later." I told her.

I dropped my little monster at his school and headed towards mine. I park at my spot and just stayed inside. I didn't feel like going to school today. If dad was alive we would be on our way to camp somewhere. I don't know for how long I've space out thinking about dad , when someone start knocking on my window.

"What!?" I shouted before turning my head to see Azai looking at me.

" Why are you crying?"

" What? I'm not!" I wiped my eyes and by my surprise I had been crying.

" And what do you care go away?"

" Whatever." He looked a bit hurt just for a second before he turn away and walked into the school.

" That's was weird." I checked myself in the mirror . My eyes wore red and puffy from all the crying I've been doing today. I should have sunglasses somewhere in here. Yes, I found them. Glasses on , fake smile on , back pack check, let's go.

I got to my locker. Why don't you want to open up you stupid thing. I bang my head against it.

" Need help?"

I jumped out of my skin and a not to manly scream escaped my mouth.

" What do you want Azai? Did you made it your mission today to scare me to death? "

" Where were you last night?"

" Why, did you miss me?"

" And what if I did."

" As if. Now move away I'm late for class."

" Let me walk you."

" Go away Azai, go torture someone else."

" Azai sugar I've been looking all over for you."

I let a small growl slipped my lips the second I herd Emma's voice. ' Oh my God what is wrong with me?!'

" Did you miss me babe?"

I didn't stay long to hear the rest of their conversation. For some reason I felt jealous. What is wrong with me? He smelled so delicious today. I don't have time for this. I have other problems. Stupid hormones. I get to my classroom I sat at the far end next to the window. I really didn't feel like being here today. I looked out the window and the only thing I wanted to do is shift and go for a run in the forest. I haven't done that in almost a month my wolf is acting out. Like earlier what was that, growling at Emma's voice? I should skip the next class and go for a run. Yes! It's decided. The second this class is over I'm out of here. The moment the buzzer went on I was out of the door. I was speed walking towards the exit when someone tap my shoulder.

For the third time today I jump out of my body.

"Where is the fire?"

" Go away Azai."

" Where are you going?"

I stopped walking and faced him. Hmm that face, those blue eyes , and full lips, and that strong jaw , his perfectly messy blonde hair.....

" Why? Why are you following me all day ? Is this some sort of punishment because I didn't come to your birthday? I'm sorry I was tired, I fell asleep on the sofa. Happy now? I apologised now leave me alone."

"Still doesn't answer my question where are you going?"

" Away, away from you, away from this school, away from everyone." I turned around and continue on walking towards the exit.

" Wait up I'm coming with you."

" You know what, I don't care, do whatever."

I walk towards the forest. He was following behind me. I didn't turn around to a knowledge him. So when I got deep enough into the forest, so the school was out of sight. I start stripping.

" Tease." Azai said somewhere behind me.

I didn't pay him much attention. When I was finally naked, I put my clothes in my backpack and shifted. It was painful , the second I changed into my wolf form a tiny whimper escaped my muzzle. I bit down on my backpack and start running. I just ran, without direction, loving the way the ground felt underneath my paws. The feeling of my body going against the wind is priceless. When I spotted the familiar lake my body froze. The pain in my chest was unbearable. I shifted back to my human form. I was crawling on the ground, one hand over my heart. I couldn't stop the tears. Here, this is the place where he took me before he died. I felt a warm hand to caress my back. The sparks that run down my body made me shiver. But the memory of me and dad on this lake, fishing, had me crying hard. There was no air in my lungs and my chest burn with pain.

" Shhh it's okay I got you." Azai had his hands around me and pull me onto his lap. I put my head in the crock of his neck. I was slowly calming down. And he continued to whisper sweet nothings into my ear. I finally stopped crying. His smell was intoxicating. My body moved on it's on. I grabbed his head and our lips collided. The kiss was full of hunger and passion. I was grinding my ass on something hard. A loud moan and taste of copper. Then it hit me what was happening. What I was doing. I pushed Azai away and shifted so quick it was painful. I run like all of hell was chasing me. I got to the borders of our school and changed back to my human form. I put on my pants and continue speed walking till I get in my car. What just happened? I need to leave town. Change my name. He will kill me. I kissed him. I checked myself in the mirror my lips wore bruised. And then it hit me. He kissed me back. Azai kissed me back. Why the hell did he kiss me back for? I can't deal with this right now. I need to pick up Jeremy and go to work. I will freak out later.

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"Hey pup how was your day?"

" BB look I made a picture."

" Oh wow it looks amazing

" Oh wow it looks amazing."

" This is me, and this here is mom, and this is you."

" I look so handsome and tall. I love it! Thanks pup."

"I draw it for you, as a gift. "

" For my birthday?"

" Yes."

" That's the best gift ever thank you pup. Now jump in the car so we can go to work."

We park outside mom's bakery. And this time we entered at the back. I need some serious baking to calm my nerves.

" My baby's!"

" Hey mom."

" Mommy I made a picture and give it to BB for his birthday."

"Is that so? And now my present won't look as good as yours." She pick him up and kissed him all over, that made him giggle.

" So mom how can I help? "

" What's wrong with your lips?"

" What lips?! Nothing! Nothing is wrong with my lips. What's wrong with your lips?"

" Smooth." My mom giggled

" And here I thought you are saving yourself for your mate." She shook her head.

I give my first kiss to Azai. What have I done? I couldn't wait one more day to meet my mate, I had to whore myself out. I start crying again. My mom and Jer hugged me.

" Don't be upset BB."

" I was just teasing you pup I didn't mean to upset you. Shhh everything is okay. "

" Nothing is okay mom. I didn't wait . My mate will hate me."

" Darling that's not true and you know it. When you meet your mate nothing else matters. You will be his or hers hole world, and nothing you've done before will matter. Trust me. Now do you want to bake some scones for the afternoon rush?"

I just nodded my head and wiped the tears away. I'm being such a baby today. I need to men up. Let's start baking that always helps.

I was almost done when Sandra came at the back to check if I'm done.

" Hey Tim."

" They will be ready in five minutes."

" Um okay but , Alpha Azai is outside asking for you."

" What? Why?"

" I don't know, he told me to come and get you."

" I'm busy, no , I'm not here, that's right, tell him I'm not here."

" You want me to lie to the future Alpha?"

" No! Of course not, just.... Just don't tell him I'm here. Please."

" Okay."

She went back at the front and I put an ear at the door to try and listen to their conversation.

" I'm sorry Azai but I don't think Tim is here."

" Is that so? And why is his car parked outside."

" Damnit!" I whisper shout behind the door.

" No , Alpha wait you can't go there , employees .... "

" Move out the way Sandra!"

" Yes Alpha."

He push the door so hard that it hit me and I fell on my butt.

" Hello there."

" Um what are you doing here, you can't be here. Why are you here anyway? I'm sorry , please don't kill me. At least not here."

"And why would I do that? Kill you I mean." He was stepping closer and closer. The predatory look in his eyes made me shiver and I start crawling backwards. Trying hard to get away and failing miserably.

" You are right. I'm innocent!"

" You didn't look very innocent to me, if I have to be honest, you looked very, and I mean very, very naughty, if you asked me."

" No I didn't!"

" I beg to differ, you horny little omega." There was something in the way he was looking at me. You could see lust and pain in his eyes. He took a deep breath and closed his eyes.

" I need to go, I'm sorry." And he was out the door in a flash.

"What just happened?"

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" Hey Tim my shift finished,but before I go, would you like to go out with me tonight? " Sandra asked.

" I didn't know."

" You should go pup , go out have some fun you deserve it."

" I really don't feel like going out tonight."

"It will be fun Tim. Come on , if you don't like it, we can call it a night. Pretty please with cherry on top."

She was bashing her eyelashes at me trying to look all innocent and cute.

" Fine. Where and what time ?"

" I will come pick you up at eight and the party is at Connor."

" Connor who?"

" You know that really tall, dark and handsome guy with the blue eyes. I think he is in the same class with Cathal."

" I think I know who are talking about."

" Cool see you at eight." She send me a kiss and walk out the door.

I was fussing in my room wondering what to wear. My little monster was jumping on my bed.

" What about this one?" I was holding a black t-shirt at my chest.

" No!" And he continued to jump up and down and giggle.

" You say no to everything."

" 'Cuz they are all yucky." He sounded so sure of himself. Jer stoped jumping and put his hands on his hips. The the little monster jumped down and run inside my closet. After two minutes he came out holding a really tight leather pants and a light gray shirt that comes almost to my knees. I hesitated before grabbing what was offered and changed into them. I have to admit it looked good on me.

" So.... Do you like it BB?"

" I love it. It looks amazing.

His eyes lit up, he jumped to climb my hip and I catch him.

" 'Cuz you are amazing BB." He giggled.

" What's the time pup?"

He eyed my alarm clock, tilted his head few times before proudly answering.

" It's seven four and three minutes."

" Fourty-three pup. That number it's called fourty-three." I kissed his forehead and I let him down.

" Fourty-three." He repeated proudly and run out my room shouting.

" Mom, mom, mommy it's seven fourty-three."

" Thank you for telling me, you little fur ball, I was just wondering what time it was." I heard my mom walking up the stairs.

" Are you excited for tonight?"

" Kind of, bit nervous to be honest."

" You are not turning into pumpkin after twelve hun, just eighteen." She bounces of the door frame and walked into my room.

" I like your outfit." She teased.

" Jeremy picked it up." He was happily jumping on my bed again.

" You have to admit the kid has a taste."

"He does."

"Okay, so I was supposed to give you this tomorrow morning, but we don't know what time you will get home , so..." And she handed me a small kind of worn out box. I opened the box and what I saw inside made me wanna cry again. It was my dad's watch.

" Oh mom I can't." I hugged her so hard you could hear few bone's popping.

" Before you break me, this watch it's been in the family for a very long time. It's given to the first born. Before your dad's it belonged to your grandmother. You are turning eighteen and it's time to start living your own life and start your own family. And one day when your child turn eighteen you will give it to them." I was a sobbing mess. Jer stopped jumping and joined the hug. I love my family so much. Our hug has to come to an end when the front door buzzer went on. I guess Sandra is here. I went downstairs to let Sandra in.

" Wow look at you looking all sexy and stuff. Ready to go."

" Yhea just one sec, mom can you help me with the watch please."

"Sure , and don't forget to have fun, but be safe."

" Sure thing mom, love you, love you too pup."

" I love you too BB."

" I love you more."

"Ready?" Sandra asked again.

" Yes, let's go and party?"