I'm going to write about a time when I was 12 I had just started my first ever period I was emotional wreck it felt like everything was 10 times worse than it used to be it's the events that took place that day that bother me the most me and my sister were in her room and my mom came in crying he asked her what was wrong and she said that Dad was being mean to her and I asked her what she was talking about and she started taking off her wedding ring and said that she didn't want to be married to him anymore so my sister went into the kitchen to see why dad was so mad about I don't know exactly what happened I just know that he got angry and he pushed my sister and I ran into the kitchen and she was crying and her back was bruised from being thrown on the floor and she had a bruise on her chest from his hand my oldest sister try to talk to him ask him what was wrong why he would do that and all he could say was I just didn't want to hurt her my dad has suffered from arthritis and fibromyalgia for years he's been on so many different medications and he's had so many different side effects but this medication made him a different person a person I was afraid of I didn't understand that at the time but I understand that now after what happened my sister swore she would never forget him she even went so far to tell him that he wasn't her father and that hurt me because I realized I couldn't forgive him either I was afraid of him I was scared of what he would do I would hide and cry it was hard for me to look at him I distance myself from him eventually we did find out it was the medication that was making him act this way and we had to sit down and talk about it my sister forgave him because it wasn't his fault and my dad asked me if I was afraid of him but I lied to him because I couldn't say that I was afraid of my own dad the man I love so much that still bothers me I don't know if can't forgive him or if I can't forgive myself for the way I felt