There's always things that trigger your anxiety and for me unfortunately that's my mom I love my mother so much but she's a hard person to deal with she acts like a teenager and thanks about no one but herself she always bitches about how she doesn't get what she wants when you try to reason with her it's like talking to a brick wall I don't know why she this way I don't feel like she was always this way I feel like when my grandparents die she changed she started talking to people on social media and whenever we would get in a fight she always swear that one of them would come take her away and that she didn't want to live here anymore she used to tell me that when I turned 18 she would leave my father and that I'd have to choose who I wanted to stay with I didn't realize it but I slowly started to resent her after everything I found out that she's done like cheating on my father before me and my brother were born I still love her me and my siblings always say it would be better without her but the truth is afraid that she will leave one day