When so much is happening and your world is falling apart why would you bring a child into a marriage that is breaking apart I was that child but I don't understand why my dad was diagnosed with arthritis he had to retire the only money they had we're from disability checks they were struggling to get by but yet they decided to have a child there's been so many times when I ask myself why why did you have me did you want me was I a mistake your world was falling apart so why did you bring me into it not that I'm ungrateful I just don't understand but these are things I could never ask my parents but these are things that I wonder these are things that I feel I feel as those these things or why I'm so messed up at the age of 13 my knee begin to dislocate I was in constant pain I was in and out of doctors offices for 4 years before they ever found out what was wrong with my knee I have a ligament in my knee that isn't even my own I have a scar that sometimes I hate sometimes I hate myself but sometimes I even hate my parents for bringing me into this world it's not that I'm ungrateful it's just that I don't understand