What ifs that's something that a lot of people think about what if this happens what if that happens I tend to think about them a lot what if I had different parents what if I didn't have siblings what if I didn't exist what ifs torture me because I'll never find the answer but yet I can't stop questioning what ifs they torture me and tear me apart they upset me they frustrate me they anger me because no matter what I'll never have the answer but yet I can't stop questioning what if

What if I had different parents would my life be better what if I didn't have siblings what if my sister wasn't my sister would we still be friends what if I went to school instead of being homeschooled would I still have anxiety would I have friends would I have a boyfriend would my life be different what if I never injured my knee what if I never spent 4 years in physical therapy would I still have found my love for anime and Kpop what if I never met that physical therapist that treating me like a lost cause what if I never had knee surgery what if was never given someone else's ligament and I didn't have scars from the surgery what if all that never happens would I still have got for help my anxiety would I still have started writing and found out that this is actually something I like doing I don't know and that the what ifs that will never be answered and that's why they torture me so much