Roman’s Pov

I sat in the beed still shaking violently. Virgil had came in here but you knew that and well I don’t need to explain you know! His side of the story so here’s mine then.

(TW:SUICIDAL THOUGHTS!!!!U HAVE BEEN WARNED)

//30 mins ago//

Patton and Virgil left me to cry. To feel dead inside. The anxiety is getting worse. I hate this feeling. I want to die. NO! I am really creativity! That doesn’t mean I haven't thought of it. I lift my sleeves and see my arm is wrapped in bandages. I traced my fingers over every cut. I had remembered where I cut myself. The cut are from yesterday. Before I turned into anxiety. Now I want to carve a happy face in my arm and show how happy I am. Gods I am a freak. I get up and walk into the bathroom I take out one my blades and I undo the bandages. I looked at my arms they weren’t completely used so I started. I put the cold but yet familiar blade on my skin and let it slide across my wrist. There’s a slight sting then I see the blood running down my wrist, I repeated the movement multiple times and did the same to my right arm. I didn’t bother to clean the cuts I just held my arm over the sink and let the blood run down. I felt tears running down my face. I cleaned my arm but the blood didn’t stop. I wrapped it it up in bandages. I rolled my sleeves up and went back into the room. I got back to the bed and I fell over. The room was spinning and that was not helping my anxiety. I didn’t want to give Thomas an anxiety attack. I groaned. We’re supposed to make a video later. I say later but I mean in like what 30 minutes. I got off Virgil’s bed and walked over to my set of clothes. I put the on, unfortunately my outfit is white and now I have to double up on bandages.

//30 minutes later//

I got ready but I was still very fidgety. I was then summoned. Great, summoned first. I put on my best and convincing smile. Let me tell you, IT WORKED. NOT. “Roman what’s wrong? You seem super fidgety. What happened?” He kept piling questions on me. Until the three other sides came up. Virgil popped up first, then Patton, and then Logan. “Hey kiddo, whatta bout we stop asking so many questions? That’s sounds wonderful!” Patton said cheerfully. Virgil then spoke “So what about we start on that video. Ok?” “I need answers before we start, Ok?” We all looked at eachother then agreed on it. Logan started to explain what happened with us and Thomas looked annoyed. “Ok, so no recording today then!” He said as he clapped his hands. “Look kiddo, these two need to learn a lesson especially Roman! A week in eachothers shoes won’t harm anybody!” Patton said brightly. Virgil's face looked grim. “Hey princey?” He said his more darker from when he first arrived. “Y-yeah?” I practically squealed out. “Have you been eating cuz all your boxes are still unopened and they’re not expired until next year.” I tensed up and said “Bye bye!” I went down into the mindscape and went to Virgil’s room locked the door and changed into my pj’s. I went under the blanket and cuddled myself into a ball. I started to cry. Until I heard a knock at the door. No point in fighting. I got up which took forever! Then I got to the door unlocked it and opened Virgil, Patton, Logan all stood there with worry in their eyes. Virgil stepped in and hugged me. (AHHH IT’S QUIET UPTOWN TURNED ON T^T)

I didn't hug back. I stood there as emotionless as a robot. What was I supposed to do? What to say? Then the words came out on there own, ¨I can’t.¨

A/N SO it's a shorter chapter than my recent ones ig idk so Im in class and I keep looking at this quote that say ¨Someday,EVERYTHING WILL MAKE PERFECT SENSE FOR NOW, LAUGH AT THE CONFUSION, SMILE THROUGH THE TEARS, AND KEEP REMINDING YOURSELF THAT EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON.¨ tbh super duper true tho just keep this in mind!