My Pain the place I was stuck the place I couldn't get out of  the place where I let her consume my anxiety 

it was after my surgery I didn't know she had so much power over me but I let her in I let her make me listen she drove me into it depression she tore me apart she told me things she tortured me with her words she told me that I was broken that no one would want me she told me that I'd never be able to walk again that I'd always be in pain what was the use it just happen again it's never going to stop dislocating it's never going to stop you have to make it stop but I didn't want to feel like this I didn't want to listen to her I didn't want to feel like a burden for everyone around me I didn't want to be hopeless I just didn't want to give her control I didn't want to let her in I didn't want to listen but she was in my mind the place where I can't get rid of her the place where she lives the place where she stays so instead of listening I ignored her I pushed her away no matter how many things she screamed at me I didn't give up I didn't lose hope because all I wanted to do was walk again I will never be able to get rid of the scars my knee will never be the same but I can walk again that's because I never lost hope and I stop listening to her she still talks to me but her voice isn't as loud as it used to be I'm learning slowly how to shut her out