Read Painted Thoughts :: you

your trapped on walls of canvas of lies,

your in my heart,

your worries run wild,

im watching,

wading,

cant take no more,

your bleeding cuts must never hit the floor,

bandages of your courage and loss,

i see it all in the stars of your eyes,

i know what this love must be like,

to you,

to everything your not,

im surprised you believe in hatred?

i am here,

loving you every second that you breath,

and when you look at me with,

those stars in your eyes,

i see the resent,

the reason you cry,

these people are nothing?

nothing to you?

yout must be a shadow,

a shadow of you,

i see you in every room,

ghosts on the walls,

shadows of your presence,

haunt my home,

even if you’ve never set foot on my floor,

i see you in everything,

that ever was,

the water that flows,

imto your hair,

in the meadows back in my hometown,

i see you

I see you,

comstantly,

constantly,

is time running

running

are you

still breathing out

whats my name

what’s my-

name!

i have no doubt?

that you know,

not even my frown.

but when I look upon your face

in your pretty pretty lipstick,

im hiding,

in the tint of its color,

a ghost of me,

a little bit of pallor,

you must watch and wait for my leave,

i leave when it’s fading

fading away,

i leave when your happy,

smiling away,

the dust on your lip stick is fading away

your eyes are the stars

why must it be love,

because it is not a word that makes sense

love why?

love where?

love who?

its everywhere

I see it

I breathe it

you are my world

i want it

You need me

I am nothing more

without it

my air is no more,

my breathing is fueled by your significant love

the love we do not share

the love that’s only in me

everywhere

i know I repeat it

constantly.

in between every breath

I feel you there

be gone thoughts

of insignificance

begone my heart of black pain and bleeding love

love so red its on your lips

yet fading away ike the eclipse

you can’t see it but once or twice

I know you want to

for even a slice of a second

—

in the rooms I feel disgrace

you have been replaced

erased

its gone

nothing at all

LIES

LIAR!

Who are you?

what are you?

How-

do you-

love me so ?

I see the way that you are

you do not know who you are

but I do

I see you

everywhere

explaining your beauty

that lies everywhere

you are ugly

ugly and kind

yes I must lie

to begin again

you are beautiful

the sky and the wind

love should be renamed to stars

because it’s far away from our hearts

but it is there

its there all along

In her lips

the dust that belongs

her.

—

crashing into nothing

what is a word I say?

What is the meaning?

My heart has been led astray

the words that pour from my heart

are not mine.

-not anything I’d say

I know my heart

and it is ever changing

you are there

everywhere

i know

even

even-

if you disappear

ill see you in-

well

everything

the bluest skies hold your name

a bird of feathers and heart

beating like mine

closest to the stars

which is why I’m so far

i want to say all these things

to show you my words

to speak my mind

to tell you of this everlasting love that plagues my entire existence

oh it must be hard

cause it seems I’m speaking this out aloud

i am

every word came straight off my lips

they poured

into a bottle

a page that I stole

somewhere I’m hiding

writing this

telling you indirectly

before you leave

before you.

disapear again.

before you forget why your here

when my words

they sounds so difficult to understand

and I know

i know it

I’m telling you

I m showing you!

My passion

my heart

the stars

the shape of your very breath

the impact it takes

when I breath in

breath out

if take a step forward

you hold me to the ground

my gravity

i stay

I stay close to you

orbiting

towards your heart

I can never give up

but I can never say

that I love you

I could never give it away

—

you dont love me

i know

i do.

its so simple

to tell you with words

for my heart to say it clearly like I am thin air

a window of time

where you can see everything

take an x-ray

my heart sits beating

and it’s purpose is

well.

its you

I know

I’ve said that so many times

ive repeated things

ive said words here and there

that seem similar

and that’s alright

I’m simply speaking my mind

a letter?

a poem

i tried.

i sung it.

i spoke it.

i thought it.

i wrote it.

and now it stays within my heart

as words that mean something

as words that impact me with the weight of a bag of bricks

a stupid stupid metaphor

i tried it

cant you see

im expressing the raw feeling of my beating chest

im inserting them into your brain

and you listen

you read

I’m sure so many have already left

a glance at words and thoughts

poems are feelings

a heart is a feeling

it’s all of them

and that’s where I come from.

i live there

in my heart

where I forget things

and cry

and laugh

i laugh a lot in your presence

I breath through roots connected there

and that’s the first thing I didn’t say aloud in a while

but I must say something

my thoughts are of you

everything is

and it’s fading away

because you’ll never be in my grasp

and the meadows stay forever empty

as I lay

contemplating my love for you.

im sorry.

i love you.

goodbye.