We are not related by blood. But ever since I met him I called him my brother. I was 15 at the time, new to the world of written role play. And that’s how we met. Creating stories for our entertainment. Slowly I grew to care for him deeply.

I hated how his girlfriend treated him, blocking him most of the time with him having to publish in public for her to come back and beg her. She would do so…

When we both found out she was cheating I tried to ask him to leave her. I couldn’t stand to see him in pain, mostly because he was one of the few who had stayed with me in my worst and managed to calm me.

I tried to get over Licorice when I discovered I also love him romantically, as you know, we never really got to anything. Now you think I left him for her...well not really, what happened was that he didn’t want another online relationship after what happened with Natalie (his ex). He wanted to come to my city and ask me in person. And I dreamed about it like you have no idea.

Damn hypocrite.

Why do I call my brother this? Well a few weeks later I find out he has another girlfriend. I was fucking replaced again!

Oh yea, worst part? He said he didn’t love her, it wasn’t serious..,just a game. He would compare me to her, saying I was better. Big brother got my hopes high to the sky. Hell he even asked me what would we name our son. We combined his father’s name and a name I liked, using our last names as well.

He did it because that...girl...said the name he wanted was stupid and that she didn’t like his last name. The fuck is wrong with you woman?! You don’t say that to your boyfriend!

Oh, here is the best part...I found out recently that for him it’s not a game anymore...that it’s serious.

Both of them just being with each other just because they were free and their exes were abusive.

He may be my brother, I might love him to bits. But I hate the fact that this is a game he has to play.

It’s not funny! It’s not fucking funny!

But, he is still here online for me. The only one close to my age group I talk to still. He is the only one who never ever abandoned me or used words to harm me. We have fought many times but we always make up and keep on writing random things.

He is gentle and kind, as well as a prankster.

I just wish I wasn’t part of his carousel, I already lost the game.