Blame we blame ourselves and others when we blame other people it makes us feel better but when we blame ourselves and makes us feel like the worst person in the world the worst part is when we blame ourselves or others for things that are out of our control

Blame I blamed my sister for something that she couldn't have avoided I hated that that I let her in I let her lock me in my mind and scream words at me words I didn't want to hear the words that made me feel ways I did not want to her words filled me with anger pain frustration I just wanted her to shut up I just wanted to escape my own mind she told me things like why wasn't she looking why wasn't she paying attention why she asking it's her fault not yours it's her mistake not yours but you're the one who trusted her you're so stupid for doing that you should have known better so therefore it is your fault it's your fault but it's actually her fault so hate her hate her I hate her so much she's going to blame you you feel that anger that rage it's her fault how are you ever trust her again she nearly killed you there's no way you can trust her it's your fault for trusting her so much these are the things I didn't want to hear this is the reason I didn't want to let her in but there's things that trigger her to come to the surface and unfortunately on that day I learn some of those triggers after that it was so hard to shut her out to shut her up to stop listening some days it's harder than others to not give in to her I'm still learning and I know she'll always be there in my mind