I have spent hours writing and erasing all my work, i just can’t get my words out right. not like you care but i’m trying to make something out of this page…

Hello, I’d rather keep my identity a secret since it’s better that way.

Just think of me of that depressed ball of shit ready to explode anytime soon :)

Ugh i don’t know what to write now. Lets start off like this,

I hate myself, everything about me, i hate it, i hate everything and every inch of me, hate it.

There are mornings i wake up and stare at myself in the mirror, and I stare for a good 10 minutes, then cry, I look at my reflection and cry. i start scratching my face up and my sensitive ass skin makes vicious red lines all over so it looks even worse. I’ve developed a strange habit of pulling out my hair. Naturally because of my deficiencies i lose hair but i guess i just make it worse for myself by ripping more out. It’s cool i guess because I'm fine..

I’m starting to feel sick of those two words “I’m fine.”

Am i really? No.

No i am not, i am in fact no where near that. But why tell anyone when you already feel like a burden upon everyone who you know? I really can’t take much more of this bullshit. Myself really lol. But it’s whatever. As long as you're happy its lit, I'm lit.

Okay I’m done for tonight ahaha I’m crying shit loads right now and i just need this one person, but who cares? Not me thats for sure. i could die for all you care and it’ll be okay because you have everyone else. I really need you. That sounds desperate af, but i actually don't care at this point. I need you, but you don’t need me.

And thats what hurts, that i need someone who doesn't need me back, doesn't love me back, and would carry on living there day to day life if i was gone. But thats life right?

I can’t really blame them. Idk if they'll ever even read this but yah.

That’s all for tonight kiddos :))

TaLk To yOu aLL sOoN

Bye mwah mwah <33