Loneliness
A feeling I've associated myself with ever since the time I could remember.
I didn't have an army. I didn't have thousands of lifeless soldiers ready to fight at my command. I didn't have Squadrons of Light Projectiles, and I didn't have the Will to Conquer. My only companion was the Dark. And I've always lived in it. Never have I once felt the warmness of Light. For I knew it was False. I would've been blinded by my own desires, just like the others.
And I was right.
There's no one else left.
They warred to their heart's contempt. Until their end, presumably. I'm the only one left. And I've never felt so....Alone. It's Peaceful, without the constant jarring and fighting for power I've ever so resented. And it's Dark. The only thing I've ever felt so connected to. But to know I'm the Entire Existence of everything there was before, I can now see how Empty it is. How it flows. What it looks like when there's nobody around, I know. But what I don't know is how I feel about it. I don't know how anything feels, except loneliness. There are times where I wonder if I could show the same degree of emotion as they did. The same Pain, and Greed, and Sorrow as they lose everything they held dear. At moments like those, I feel Hollow inside. Like all form of sentimental feelings flow through, but ends up getting washed out by the emptiness rejecting everything. Making me think thoughts of Despair. That Love is Flawed. And Everything that made up all of what I once knew meant NOTHING in the end. I know what these thoughts mean, but I don't know what to feel about them. All I know resides in the Dark. In it's expansion of Infinite Possibility. But all I can do is float around in this Metaphorical Sea of Everything that means absolutely Nothing to me. I am wary of it. I don't know what would happen if I followed a path of Destiny. If I would be better off in Nothing, then seeing Everything. It's of Dark and Light, and only the former warned me of the Truth.
So instead of continuing existence, I decided to leave it alone. And lay waste in the Emptiness of Nothing.
Forever.
Because I Am Alone.
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