Today isn't going to be a great day. I just woke up after a long night trying to work on a school project. In four hours, we are going to the funeral of a long time family friend. I have the feeling that I'm going to hold in the tears for the whole funeral... until my tough sister can't help it anymore. She was very close to him, he was like a second grandfather to her. I wasn't as close but when my sister starts crying... I won't survive. There is a dinner gathering afterward because we weren't invited to the burial. "Why?" many people ask when their loved ones die. "Why does this happen?" I could make a debate about this, but I'm just going to leave it there.