“Did you get any” Evan asked

“Nope nothing at all”

“Are you serious?” Evan said surprisingly

“Yeah am serious nothing. Why do you seem surprised”

“Well I thought you maybe had a ...boyfriend or.. Something,” Evan said uncomfortably

“Oh wow, I don't have a boyfriend. I mean I saw a couple of people but it didn't work out. The boys in this school aren't my type.” Zayn replied

“You saw a couple of people?” Evan asked

“Yeah I kissed a few boys here and there even went as far as losing my virginity if you can believe that,” Zayn said carelessly

“How was it. Did it hurt?”Evan asked shyly

“Hurt?” Zayn asked blankly

“I mean. When someone you know puts it in. it obviously hurts becau….”

“Hold up,” Zayn said interrupting Evan and laughing at the same time.

Evan turned red after hearing zayn laugh at him. He stayed silent feeling as though he had said something wrong. After all, he didn't know too much about gay sex. He was a virgin too and hadn't even gone as far as kissing a girl. So he felt a bit out of place seeing that zayn already had experience. Zayn finally stopped laughing and said

“I think it hurts. I can't really speak on that because I'm a top” Zayn replied

“A top?” Evan asked curiously

“Yeah am the guy who puts it in. so I wouldn't really know but it should hurt. The guy I did it with was definitely not a virgin. My thing went right in him easy.” Zayn said seriously

“Did you like it?”Evan asked

“Well, its sex. I guess it was okay” Zayn replied.

“Well, I guess having sex is part of growing up huh?” Evan said trying not to look surprised

“ no it's not.” Zayn replied, “I hope you're not having sex right?”

“No am not but seeing how you're already having sex maybe I should be more open” Evan replied

“Nah don't stress wait for your time,” Zayn said assuringly

“I Have to hang up now thanks for calling zayn," Evan said with a smile

"oh okay laters" Zayn replied 

Hearing that Zayn was already having sex made Evan feel a bit heavy right around his chest. Suddenly he hated the distance between them and wanted him to come back. He didn't know why but he didn't like knowing Zayn had a whole other life. Evan got into bed and all he could think of was how zayn felt having sex with someone else.

“He's a top huh,” Evan thought to himself “ does that mean if I had to have sex with him I would have to “take it,” Evan thought to himself. He jumped on to his bed and hid under the covers after realizing that he just thought about having sex with Zayn.

“I should sleep. Am definitely not okay” Evan said as he shut his eyes