I am feeling so low. I don't think my girlfriend likes me anymore. I don't know what I did to make her not like me anymore. I hate school and my doctors are suggesting that I transfer. I feel so lonely and empty inside, like nobody knows me. Nobody knows how vile and angry I feel, that all the time I just want to kick a wall or just fuck shit up one way or another. I don't know how much longer I can go without drinking. I want a drink I want a drink I want a FUCKIN drink. I want to be drunk. 

I am just horribly fucked inside and out. I have had way too many sexual experiences for being 14. I let creepy chicks and dudes have their ways with me when I could have said no. I want my goddamn innocence back, but I can't have it. I spent a year in a haze of alcohol and pills. I'll never be the same. 

God, I just wish somebody loved me.