I can't live since that day

that day

I remember I was going down the stairs and the light came weak through the window

I always lived on the edge of future

almost an opportunity, almost a way

but in that day a nest of an idea became something else

something bigger

when I looked back through the window and found everything the universe was doing

what at first seemed like a party in the dark came to life

everything out there

everything was so much more than me, so important

It was in that day

It was me down the stairs and above me there was everything

I can't live anymore

without knowing

who invited me and why

I am in a corner at the party

I am one of those who let two fingers of some drink left in the glass

because I don't know for sure the glass is mine

They have it all figured out

The whole world, the universe

They dance like it is all choreographed

And I am the only one who doesn't know the steps

Who would know

I can't live since that day

without knowing the name of the music playing

the drink they are serving

why the hell we are celebrating