Warning of mentions of losing virginity and self harm

Eventually I won't think about it that's what I keep telling myself and I can't get these thoughts out of my head eventually everything will be normal eventually I won't think about it

Eventually I won't think about it the fact that my sister told me she lost her virginity to her coworker eventually the one in my mind will stop making me replay her confession eventually it won't bother me anymore and the one in my mind won't keep Reminding me of the details the first couple hours after my sister confessed to me I felt like I was suppressing my feelings I cried but I didn't understand why but the one in my mind told me this wasn't something I could deal with but she was lying to me I know that's not true and she made me think I wanted to hurt myself again but I knew better I knew I was the one in control so I wasn't afraid of the one in my mind and I know that even though the one in my mind try to tell me my sister did was wrong I know what she did wasn't wrong at all and I should not be mad at her for it  it was her decision she's adult and she gets to live her life and I would never judge her for this but yet the one in my mind try to make me it took time but I sorted out what I was feeling and what the one in my mind was trying to make me feel and I know no matter what the one in my mind tells me eventually I won't think about it