warning mentions of depression read at your own discretion

I'm on the edge between breaking apart and just barely holding it together because the one in my mind knows I'm weak right now so I'm on the edge

I'm on the edge because she likes to kick me when I'm down the one in my mind knows I'm at my weakest this when she plays her dirty games because I made a decision to have my cat neutered now he's in pain and I can see the sadness in his eyes and all I want to do is take it away I hate that I'm the one who chose to have him in this pain I'm on the edge because I feel pain because I can feel his pain and the one in my mind she keeps trying to push me off the edge but I keep pulling myself back because I know my cat needs me I need him because he's the only thing that helps me hold on to my sanity the only thing that keeps me from completely shattering I don't want to lose myself like I did before I know how hard it was to crawl out of that hole of darkness of depression and I don't want to go back there but I'm on the edge