I am known to tell the truth,
I am known to speak my mind.
I don't care what you think,
I don't care what you say.
But there is one thing on my mind,
that I don't even think to say.
There is one lie I tell,
At least every single day.
And ya know,
I'm not happy to lie,
I'm sad that I can't speak my mind.
But if I do I'm scared of what you'll say,
Of what you will think.
I'm sorry but I don't trust you.
I want to but I can't,
My instincts are telling me to run,
They're telling me to lie,
They are telling me what to say.
And that is ...
"No, I'm okay!"
"Don't worry I'm just cold!"
But I'm not,
No, I am not.
I've got things on my mind I'm too scared to say.
I've got feeling I don't understand.
I've got lie I tell and I feel so bad,
And I'm sorry that I lied to you.
and I'm sorry that I can't trust you.
But my instincts tell me so,
I can't defy them even if I wished so.
And I don't bloody care that I'm sad! that I'm scared. I'll tell you.
And I don't care what my instincts say! They're just suggestions.
I'm not fine! And that's hard to say.
I'm not okay! There's something wrong with me.
I am not cold! I am scared. Of you.
I'm sorry I lied to you. I'm really sorry
And I'm sorry I didn't tell you that I need help, that I need help.
But I'll tell you someday,
When I'm ready.
When I'm prepared.
I'll tell you later,
But keep it in mind, I'm not okay.
I'm not just cold,
I am not