i met a boy today, he's really nice. His name is Arthur theres not much to say about him besides he's trans FtM  so yeah but honestly i don't really care. Right now he's going through shit i wanna help him he wants to die but he doesn't deserve that he's a wonderful human being. Anyway I had enough of everyone its always the same thing everyday. Go to work, go home,get beaten up, take care of Kai, repeat. Go to work, go home,get beaten up, take care of Kai, repeat you get the idea. Honestly if you look at it i always take care of others instead of myself to were its at the point were im not even mentally taking care of myself. " hey f** how are ya" Jackson stated as he walked up to me.  i was so lost in my thoughts that i didn't hear him the first three times. but i finally answered "what now" " my place now" answered Jackson. I knew what was going to happen it always does especially when i disobey.

   We got to his house and immediately as i walked in he grabbed me by the waist and he started kissing me. eventually his hand slipped in my shirt i tried to pull away but every time his grasp grew tighter. I hated this i start thinking as soon as he finished tying me up to the bed. i hated how he thought he could control me. "HELP" i attempted to scream but couldn't it only came out as a whisper. he continued despite how i repeatedly told him no this happened every time i should be used to it by now right?