Warning this maybe triggering for some read at your own discretion

I don't want to let her win but the meds aren't working like they're supposed to I don't want to let her win but she became stronger and she's making me weaker she's making me feel like the person I used to be and I didn't like her I don't want to let her win

I don't want to let her win but she's easier to deal with when she's under the influence of pills she's weaker but right now I feel like I'm constantly in a war with her I can't separate my own thoughts from what she's telling me and now I feel like I'm slipping back into girl I was before the one that let anxiety ruin her life everyday is a struggle because these meds these pills they're not working like they're supposed to and I no longer feel like me without my meds when my medication works I feel like I can deal with anything anything she says but now everything she says it's getting to me and I can't shut her out everyday feels like a living hell but I don't want to let her win