Warning detail mentions of a panic attack read at your own discretion

I just want to be happy is that too much to ask for I just want to be okay for a couple minutes I just want to have a moment where I don't feel like I'm completely falling apart I just want to be happy is that too much to ask for

I just want to be happy is that too much to ask for because my favorite K-Pop group just had there comeback they're going to be on Saturday night live tonight I just want to be happy but it's hard to do that play my sister's mad and stressed because my brother asked her for gas money and he couldn't tell her he was going to need this when she got paid so she could work out her Spence's and know what she needed to spend her money on so are for once we didn't have to stress about money but I couldn't do that now I'm finding out there's no problems with my father's help I thought that everything was finally find how to try not to listen to the one in my mind I'm trying not to believe her words but it's so hard when you feel like you're on the verge of breaking like every wall you built up to keep her out is crumbling because the ones you need to be there for you to give you strength or only making you waker only making it worse to deal I know I'm letting this get to me I know I'm letting the one in my mind get to me because I'm shaking and I feel that shortness of breath and I know I'm on the verge of a panic attack so I'm trying I'm trying so hard to shut her out the one my mind to not listen to her because I just want to be happy is that to much to ask for